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i was thinking. alot. deeply. and trying to find a reason and the balance between the all in all. yeah. 2010 is coming. next week is starting soon. right after the next week, im going to have a new life. yeah. and there is a lot of things im gonna abandon. for example, gaming. having fun. i got a position now. things to manage. and i gotta unlearn all the unnessary things. a clean slate. thats what im looking for. gotta get serious yum. u gotta get serious. u work for this. u earn this. u definitely deserve this man. dont blew it this time. yeah no i wont blew this. no more childish acts, no more involved in deep shit hell hole with girls who dont deserve me. yeah screw you helwa ben abad. u screw my life like hell and i dont know why the fuck ur images keeps coming back in my dreams. ur giving me a hell of nightmare all these weeks. stop giving me nightmares man. i forgive u already. i forget you already. u are not suppose to resurface back in my eyes. u said u hate me. so bon-vogaye deep shit.jog on and fuck off.


so good bye to you. a very early good bye to 2009 and a welcome 2010.2009 was a hellish form of time for me. i dont know how the hell did i fucking survive in 2009. starting from a deep shit in early febuary, and till late august. leaving all the past behind. wont look back. never back down. a new man is born. today. tonite. in this room. julia and sylvia are my duchess of witness. i vowed tonite. yeah. im sorry E.Q. i dont know where am i and what i am doing while u are in need of me. i was such a jerk. i admit that. im chasing my dreams. i couldnt chase yours. i dont have much time like you do. but, please ask yourself this question, where were you when i need u the most? where were you.

goodnite malaysia.
ja~ne.

Uverworld - madara chow & Angela Aki - Season Of Love

uverworld and angela aki dah keluarkan single baru.yeah.great single,great music great voice :)




p/s : music is useless if the audience is deaf :)

perbezaan antara org bodoh dengan org pandai.


orang-orang yang tidak tahu ukur baju badan sendiri,ini lah akibat nya.dia ingat dengan 38 serangan bertubi-tubi dari pukul 6.41 pagi hingga 4.01 petang dia boleh nak ranapkan kampung aku ni? kesian.bodoh.

orang sekeliling tak panggil aku dewa game/god of gamer tanpa sebab.walaupun aku sudah hilang bisanya,tapi aku bukan mudah untuk di perkotak katikkan mereka.

..............

aku berani mengaku aku dah noob.tapi aku yang noob ni tak bisa kau tewaskan,jadi,apakah tahap kau? dan apakah tahap aku?

maaf,bukan ingin berlagak,tapi tangan aku,di cipta untuk bermain game.im doing the best at it :)
qayyumx bukan nama asing lagi di dalam dunia permain berkomputer online.mahupun pc,ke arcades,lantas ke ps ataupun psp serta nintendo ds,nama aku ini sudah tidak asing lagi.

Tahukah Anda?

1.Tahukah anda bahawa saya makan kurma semalam,kurma pertama di dalam hidup saya.Yang saya boleh habiskan.


2.Tahukah anda,saya boleh mengikat rambut saya dan membuat dua tocang di kiri dan kanan.

3.Tahukah anda,saya tidak gemar menjadi ketua atau mengetuai apa-apa atau sebarang jenis program ataupun kumpulan,tetapi ia gemar memilih saya.

4.Tahukah anda bahawa jika anda tidak pernah di maki, di marah,atau pun di herdik oleh saya kerana saya masih bersikap bermuka-muka dan hipokrit.Jika di lakukan, pasti anda tidak mahu menjadi kawan saya.

5.Tahukah anda saya masih menyimpan sesalan masa dahulu dan bermimpi ngeri tentangnya setiap hari sejak dua minggu lepas dan dia sangat mengganggu fikiran saya.

6.Tahukah anda bahawa saya mahu "PUNCHING BEG" sebagai hadiah hari jadi saya tahun ini?

7.Tahukah anda bahawa saya juga punyai masalah sendiri? Bukan menjadi bahu dan sandaran anda semua untuk melepaskan segala-gala? Muka ini telah menipu kalian banyak kali dengan memberikan "senyuman manis" yang jahat lagi sinis.

8.Tahukah anda saya yang benci kepada mereka yg tidak "text" semula kepada saya.

9.Tahukah kenapa saya amat handal dan hebat ketika bermain "video games"? Ini kerana saya tidak mendapat kasih sayang yang secukupnya, serta di abaikan kerna adik-beradik lain.Lalu saya membuang masa dengan menipu ibu bapa sendiri untuk pergi ke cyber cafe.Dan sejak dari situ, karier bermain video game saya secara professional bermula.

10.Tahukah anda saya sangat penat? Mata rasa nak terkeluar, tulang rasa nak pecah, kaki rasa nak tercabut. Tapi saya kena sambung projek yang seterusnya.Sekian.Selamat malam.

sorotan kajian.haha banggangg -.-"

day one.sabtu.


-take the bus to kajang.they pick me up there.switch the bus
-went to perak with 22 unknown people innit.too many girls and just 5 guys there (contestant)
-i sit infront.lucky the driver mind is aligned with mine.so we sing a long iklim's songs.he say i got a great voice.yeah pakcik,i had.but i need better and proper training :D
-there is a dude,he's trying to act cool and trying so hard to join us singing and trying so hard to get the girls attention,i'd say.ada jugak org mcm ni.bukan apa.just...annoyed.dah la tak tau nyanyi.u shud stay put and listen the old man do the job.not like humming 'mmmhmmm bla bla bla'.dumb ass.perosak lagu.

day two.ahad.

day:
-arrived there as early as 5 am.crap.singgah si masjid.semayang subuh sana.
-then continue to the tambun park.arrived there around 9.its raining.
-jungle trackking to the camp site.its raining.im soakin wet.but its fine.arrived there,do my job.build the tent.
-routine,speech,count people.divided into smaller teams of 6.yeah.as usual.im the leader again.
-bersihkan sekitar campsite,build this and that.
-my team is in charge of cooking.so luckily there is 5 of girls innit.yeah i survived.

night:
-buat campfire.the fire just wont light.there is this stupid dude who try to make a joke by saying he cud light the fire up,just find him 2 stones (he was saying "BALLS" actually).damn pathetic joke.i'd say why dont i soak u in tinner and light u with ur lighter.we got a human torch.thats nice.
-sing along time.there is one dude lagi.haha tak habis2 aku jeles dgn org kan.ok enough buat dosa.since they already knew that im the best singer they got there.so i sing.like always.lagu2 camping.lagu2 rakyat.damn gay =.=
-later at 12 sumthing.ice braking lagi.we shares stories.how and why were here.i lied mine.i say i dont know why im there.and why am i involved in.i just dont have any interest sharing whats mine to them.i dont think they deserve to know.
-the rain just dont stop.tonite game, midnite owl is cancelled due to excessive rain.we all go to bed around 2.

day three.monday.

day.
-woke up at 6.gather my troops.were making the breakfast.so they cook sardine.and letak dlm roti.i cook scambled egg.yeah i dont know sedap ke tak.makan je la sial.dlm hutan kau mintak ciken chop,aku chop kepala kau sudah.
-going jungle tracking as early as 7.30.fuk.its raining.rambut aku dah menjurai2 ke bawah.mcm the great khali je kat wwe.dgn beg berat.i know i cant do this.i force myself to do it.kaki sakit tuhan je tau.then sampai kat satu area gua ni.we play some childish game.tapi enjoyable.apa bole buat.im stuck here.lets go with the flow.

night.
-again with the cooking.sop telor.oh what ever aku tak sentuh pun this one.tapi quite sedap.akak tu masak.muhaha.rupe kau huduh tapi masakkan kau sedap XD.
-before magrib,ada taklimat.we got a change in plan.so we packup,and we went to the nearest settlement.yeah.finally.there's electricity.i can charge the laptop.finally.god listen to my prayings.haha.
-1st LDK.the game name is black dots.its about the bad past time we had,and it acts like a black dot in ur life and how does the black dot change ur life in to the life ur having now.again.i lied.and sumhow a conflict happens.i was in a middle of quarrel with this one big time loser facilitator.my killing intention is reaching the limit.blood was boiling.i was holding my knuckle.still,i nearly lose it.i manage to hold back.he's just..lucky to be alive till now.

day four.tuesday.

day.
-cave exploring at gua datok.near death experience here.i was stuck under river cave.damn due to my extra size i was stuck.hahaa.damn i had claustrophobia (i cant stand in a tight and dark situation,i cant breathe).i keep myself calm and manage to escape from that hell hole.sigh sigh =.=.

night.
-there will be another LDK and ceramah again tonite.i dont think i wud listen on that.i might be as well put on my earphone and playing FF:Dissidia as well.

p/s : well,thats for now.ada masa aku upload photos since tak bawak cable and so on.will be updated soon.

ja~ne.