ho ho ho haleloya merry x-mas

27/12/2011.

rasanya tak terlambat lagi tuk aku nak ucap merry (multiply) mas untuk rakan2 aku yang ternyata bukan islam melayu moslem yg menyambutnya. eh kenapa aku tulis merry (multiply) mas ?

haa, sebagaimana yang kau semua (di baca serbanitas/hijabsters/yunarian/sekularism bodoh piang tolol isap HAWW lagi bagus)

dan silalah kembali kepada root berkenaan murtad, tanya diri sendiri, apakah punca terjadinya murtad.

1. lisan
2. hati.
3. perbuatan.

di mana selagi tiada salah satu dari tiga perkara ini terjadi keatas seseorang umat manusia, adalah agak mustahil bagi mereka untuk di jatuhkan hukum murtad. bagi orang yg cetek agama, jika seorang ustat memberikan ceramah, kemudian dia memberikan contoh fizikal dan lisan yang berkaitan murtad adakah dia murtad?

"ehh yum isu murtad jangan di bawak main, bila2 masa tanpa kita sedar kita boleh murtad"

ya betul, memang bukan isu main2. tahukah anda bila nabi isa lahir sebenarnya? ha mesti tgh nak google sekarang, kan? (bodoh) jadi kalau murtad semudah itu mengikut kifarah murtad yang di tentukan oleh para ilmuan sebanitas yang tak berotak, jadi jatuh hukum murtad bagi mereka yang menghadiahkan sesuatu kepada orang lain pada tarikh 25 disember setiap tahun, maka jatuh hukum mereka kerana ia berkaitan dengan adat dan kepercayaan orang kristian.

"eh sekejap, tapi kan yum, aku rasa x-mas ni pegi church, baca doa, masuk gereja, bagi hadiah ni sekadar adat je kan? dinner ramai2 time hari perayaan adalah normal, betul?"

oh baru nak guna otak? agama sendiri kau tak kuasai, kau nak judge agama orang? kelakar lah awak ni adik2. ha tula lilit otak tu dengan sarung nangka, buat salut telor kotey gajah pun lagi bagus. helo? adat, itu semua tidakkan menjatuhi murtad semudah itu. jadi jika aku fasih bertutur bahasa cina ke russia kira aku ni murtad? sbb bertutur bahasa selain bahasa russia dan cina? sbb bahasa cina buddha perkenalkan, bahasa russia tuhan diorang cipta?

tak. tak semudah itu. hari gawai sambut takpa, x-mas tak boleh? kenapa? malaysia takda tuhan salji? kalau wish x-mas takut tuhan salji turun malaysia ni beku? hari gawai kena sambut sbb tuhan padi turun?

 trolled. part 1.

dah tu, amalan beri memberi ni, time x-mas je, kenapa di guna pakai time aidilfitri? bukan ke pengertian aidilfitri tu hari kemenangan bagi umat islam yang telah berperang dengan hawa nafsu sendiri, bukan untuk membazir beri sana sini ikut nafsu, shopping sakan ikut nafsu? apa alasan kau? engkau siapa nak jatuh hukum murtad bagi satu frasa yang entah sahih atau tidak berkenaan kelahiran nabi isa mengikut versi bible? (di baca- mesti kau masih google tentang tarikh lahir sebenar nabi isa dalam kalendar georgian dan masihi?)

ni ambil contoh ni pulak



ha ni nak cakap apa? mempersendakan islam? tapi kenapa aku tak rasa macam tu? aku rasa ni adalah cara yang sangat kreatif dan catchy tuk menarik minat budak2 muda yang suka kpork. this is something, creatif, berbanding nashid sekarang yang hanya bersimbolkan lelaki kacak dari lubnan bersuara sedap tapi pengisiannya kosong. pempuan hanya gilakan lelaki itu, dan adalah pemangkin bagi golongan bertudung lilit untuk menjadi lebih bodoh dari dasar dan secara basis.

am i right? am i right? u tell me? correct me if i am damn wrong. so i can learn from my mistake.

bagi golongan serbanitas, hijabsters, dan sekalian, semua benda dalam dunia ni jahat, freemason. burung hantu? haiwan freemason. tanah runtuh, taufan, tsunami pun sampai di relatekan dalam al-quran. 2012 disember tarikh hari kiamat? bulan ramadhan (di baca - ini adalah taakulan si bodoh sebanitas tarmizi abd halim)

oh my god for god sake, anda ni semua terlalu extreme dengan agama dan kaum sampai melupakan dari al quran itulah datang nya teknologi, sains dan al-quran co-relate satu sama lain. begitu juga bahasa, sastera, adat, dan meliputi segala2nya

yang sebenarnya jahat tu television, itu adalah dajjal sebenar, mengawal manusia dari rumah. menghabiskan masa 20 jam sehari menghadap television. otak rosak dek gelombang magnetik (theori berkenaan kanser otak 10 tahun dahulu)

jauh di sudut hati kecil saya, saya berharap agar golongan2 ini di kurniakan otak. mungkin zaman kegemilangan ahli ilmuan islam seperti ibn sinar, ibn jabbar, ibn qayyum, mungkin socrates mahupun plato beragama islam dan melayu dapat di lahirkan.

sekian. rant saya malam ini.

agensi mencari jodoh

(p/s: sekadar gambar hiasan)

nama saya qayyum abdul razak, masih single, menunggang kawasaki ninja RR berwarna hijau, berkemungkinan hanya sebiji sahaja di bandar kinrara ni, bekerjaya sebagai unit pemprosessan di telekom malaysia, tinggal di kompleks kondominium suria kinrara, masih tiada tanggungan yang berat selain menyara adik-adik dan parents saya, saya tak banyak karenah, wallet saya berkepuk duit, credit card baru ada 1 je RHB visa, helmet saya murah la tapi helmet magnum sbb helmet GM saya kena curi kat KLCC sebulan lepas. saya tak suka lepak kedai murah seperti di downtown or uptown dan boleh di katakan setiap malam saya makan murni, williams, seoul garden, old town, laksa shack, (sila rotate menu makanan saya setiap hari).

tapi sebelum tu saya nak tanya awak, wahai gadis2 sekalian, adakah awak memakai tudung? pandaikah awak memasak dan mengemas rumah? apalah nak di bandingkan sangat kerja mudah ini berbanding membanting tulang 4 kerat ni mencari rezeki halal tak kira siang malam untuk menyara keluarga nanti? berbaloi ke penat lelah saya mencari rezeki untuk seorang gadis mcm awak? soalan saya tak terhenti di situ. sudi dan sanggupkah awak menjaga ibu bapa saya ketika mereka sakit? mampukah awak memberikan saya zuriat dan anak-anak yang bijak serta taat kelak? awak pandai buat air sirap selasih tak? air teh berperisa peach? goreng jemput-jemput pandai?

maafkan saya sebelum saya menjadi lebih kasar dan menguris hati awak, saya nak tahu adakah paru paru, jantung, otak awak tiada kesan nikotin dan tar hitam? mulut awak? usus awak? pernah ke air syaitan melalui kesemua organ2 itu? sbb saya tak mahu anak-anak saya kelak cacat, kurang zat, di lahirkan cacat ataupun tak cerdik sebagaimana anak-anak orang lain. mata awak tu seberapa banyak maksiat yg awak telah lihat?

sekiranya anda mempunyai ciri-ciri ini, maka saya rasa, kita harus menyegerakan proses mendirikan tiang masjid ini, saya tidak keberatan untuk meninggalkan number telefon saya, dan juga kunci rumah saya untuk awak, dan hati awak.

apa kata awak?

the varsity of holidays/weekend definition for me

waddap folks. hows ur weekend? its a 2 + 1 holiday this week and the next week. so some of u guys might take this chance to go back to ur respective home town. having dinner with family, meeting buddies and comrades alike. spend sometimes together.

or maybe u guys are out there in the town dating with ur respective partners. have a nice day u guys.

me? nah. i have a very different perspective of enjoying weekend and holidays. or i shudda say in a varsity of version i cudda say.


version A (forever alone):
honestly, i am the type who not enjoy crowded place, traffic jam. so usually i'll spend time in the office till late evening, and if there is anything in town i'll show up there alone. or if people gathering for something and i'll be there too after working.

at night i'll might be going out for EPL match with my homeboys or friends. having shisha, small talks or discussion, teh tarik sessions and so. sometimes watch movies or karoke

or instead if im too tired to go out i'll just hang around at home, call in delivery fast food, enjoy cerekarama or EPL myself. watch till u drop

version B (if/else i had a girlfriend):
again i will work in the morning and will meet/pick her up and go to the mall. fine dinning and movie is a must, while playing arcades is a YES for me. but instead of this, i rather pick her up, head up home. i'll be cooking dinner, and we gonna watch movie or DVD together at home. this is rather more suitable for me since i dislike crowded places and it gave me headaches trying to avoid everybody.

or take her somewhere else. a ride to the beach, anywhere, to enjoy good food. for what la i buy this sport bike if im not gonna ride it anywhere right?

and its okay if she refuses this, but occasionally, i only do date if there is any event in the town. art gallery, video game expo, PC fair and stuffs. i am not a dating type of person. dinner or lunch its okay, or a movie. but lingering around mall walking over here n there without any motive isnt my style.

version C (homeboys-staying in):
we'll cook / call in delivery, watch movie/EPL together, and play dota the whole night.

p/s: so, what will u guys do? me? im still at the office, finishing my work. good day lads. have a nice day. enjoy weekend!

a reason to sulk

rasa nak menangis. i cudnt even achieve my goals for this year. and i am still lacking a few items/goal that i've set for this year. less in 10 days, this year gonna end. yeah is gonna end soon. and im looking forward to next year. what it holds for me.

but not bad, this year, look what i got myself :

1. HTC Flyer
2. Samsung Galaxy
3. New Razer set.
4. A new home. A perfect new home
5. A sportbike.
6. A book shelf
7. A job
8. A picture of myself with dota idols.

this is 8 major goal for the year 2011. and whats left is 



 a god damn razer orca which is priced at RM 599
a sportbike tank beg for riders. Imported ones cost at RM 800 - RM 900 while local is about RM 200 depending on the size


oh and this is N-VIDEA GTX 650 HD. RM 400 - RM 500. depends on the seller.

menurut statistik, aku akan kembali stabil pada bulan mac 2012, skarang ini aku taklah sempit mana, tapi boleh la tanggung diri sendiri, tak semewah dahulu. semua gara2 mengejar harta dunia. tapi takpa. jangan alpa dengan kesenangan dunia. bila takde duit, kita akan sentiasa teringat yg di atas sana, kalau banyak duit, satu benda hapah pon takkan ingat.

belanja belanja jugak, tanggungjawab kena selesaikan. yg mana harus selesaikan sila selesaikan dulu, bills, hutang, bagi mak bapak n adik2, baru diri sendiri. 

p/s : sila berbelanja dengan bijak.

Deeper Conversations

its 6.39 pm. i am at the 3rd floor of the parking area of suria kinrara condo. and i climb up the ledge. take a sit. watch the sunset in the middle of KLCC and KL tower view. i was soaking wet in my working clothes. a sigh.
that is all for the moment. a long sigh and a double facepalm to my face. i was tired. and obviously thinking about things.

while im having a me-time on the rooftop, i heard a voice asking me.

"what happen? a long and tiring day? need a drink?"

i wasnt replying at all. keep on the posture of facepalming and after a few minutes, i turn my head to the right a little, i saw a woman, dressed in green black offering me a tin of nescafe. and i said,

"why, does it matter to u anyway? what will it does to me if i answered all of ur question?"

i know i was rude, but i dont know why i am talking like that to some stranger person whos offering me a drink. i took a deep nod down there. and after a few moments i took my eyes to the sky.

"beautiful isnt it? its not the best view but its still beautiful aite? u wont get this view anywhere, i pay a lot of money to get this place. and still, it doesnt give me peace at all"

.......................................

"for what all of these things if had not found any peace at all, what have not i done this time? why am i being ignored?

the women in green-black suit steps forward, and tap my shoulder, and without me looking at her she says :

"ur lost ur way somehow. i can see thru it, but i dont have any fixing to do with u. no medication provided. only u can find ur own way, ur life, ur goals, nobody gonna set ur goal unless u start to find one"

nodding my head down again, i answered 

"if i set my goals, i might leave everything, every person, every memories behind. and i dont want to lose that. i have faith. i have responsibility to take care off. how can i forget everybody else? i had nobody with me now. not even my mom and my dad to guide me. all left in this place is me. is me. the joke? its on me"

she replied 

"enough worrying bout the others, u have ur own life, leaving them behind doesnt mean that u gotta keep em away forever. ur just going for awhile and once u settle down with ur goals, come back here. those people will wait for u forever. u keep all of the burden to urself and u getting hurt each time u took all of those burden, being a hero each time. even superheroes need help"

speechless. and i watch the skies turning dark-orange and the sun is halfed in size.

"what about u? will u leave me? will u join me in my quest? and what if i lost u in the journey? to whom shall i talk to again? 

*small laughing*

"haha, u dont have to worry about that. i am always there with u. conscious, or unconsciously. i am always there, watching u from a far, help u in anyway i can"

she walks awayfrom me. leaving her footsteps echoes in the empty parking lot. i throw away my beg. and began to climb down from the ledge. i lie down. watching the skies. and it cries again.

closing my eyes shut, turn my head to the left, ah, its u tihani, thank you. thank you.


........................................


*sigh*




facing it

im facing another failure moment here late in 2011. i tried to take what i think belongs to me. i tried to make it mine. but when i just about to grab it. things happen. yeah it happens. people say

"what does not belong to you, it wont belong to you, it were never meant to be yours"

in bahasa, 

"kau kejar lah mcm mana pun, kalau dah takdir kau, qada n qadar kau, itu takde rezeki nama dia"

aite. i get it. i get it. no matter what i do. no matter how fast im chasing it. yes. what isnt mine is not mine to grab. i can explain me now as, im kinda fucked up, with a little twist of unseen frustration and a bit of depressed. 

look. rome wasnt build in days but it crumbles in a day. life takes a lifetime to grow old but death can take u out within a blink of eye.

enough ruining things around. im kinda sad for the moment. but its okay. i can manage somehow. i cant show my sadness. i cant show anger. i cant runaway just like that. facing it is the only way. to forgive and forget its easy.

to accept? its a damn whole new story.

but anyway. thank you for the things u done. you you you and several other you. 


so. whats ur #2011regrets?

this topic trends in #twitterjaya today. and im kinda busy to spam and share in the TL whats my regrets in this year.

so cut it short, there is several major regrets i have. setting me on a several hiatus state and a few drawbacks just to get myself in the right shape of status.

mainly its about job, life. blah blah blah. but instead of writing all of ur regrets and misery and stood all day being sad, lets do what barney stinson do.


"when im sad, i stop being sad and be awesome, true story!"

things happens aite? whether u like it or not, with or without u. this is life cycle. soon its gonna be ur cycle. take all of those regrets,  put it in a bottle, throw all of those bottles in to deep sea and try not to do the same mistake again.

i have nothing much to say lately. sure we cant mend certain level of sadness, rages, the surge of an emotion. but somehow. channel it thru the right way. stop doing damage to urself. or on anybody else.

listen to this song. cant embed in here. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b3c32wBYdU0

by james blunt - same mistake

and. nothing much to say. goodnight. have a nice sleep


ice-man

it was the best of times
it was the worst of times
it was the age of wisdom.
its was the age of foolishness
it was the epoch of belief
it was the season of light
it was the season of darkness
it was a spring of hope
it was the winter of despair

- a tribute to charlie dickens.

#ww17 - satellite controlling


self-centralization

there is too much things that open up my eyes currently. i cant just change directly. takut my friends shocked with this transformation. bole la layan sikit2. honestly i've change during these time being.

-crushing others moral is just sick. trust me. i did that alot in cybergaming n cyberspace. it aint fun when u start to realize that is so wrong to do.

-when ur ego is starting to grow big, the only person who can stop urself is another u. yeah another u. just like in the reflection in the mirror. u versus u. see what damage has been done.

-its only natural that u hate things that others like and they hate things u like. why butthurt so much?

-its true that i've changing quite fast lately. keyboards? it dont gets me anywhere unless the things u type is printed out and u start to do something about it. and my pride isnt determined by words that came out from ur keyboard. who the hell are u anyway? just another dot in this world.

-do u know having urself and keeping urself in check is not easy work to do?

-how about u repaying ur debt back into the society, repay the mortgage given. stop writing shit and do nothing about it. just what are u anyway?

-there is a lot more waiting for u rather than make everything dangling on a keyboard. do not put ur life, ur everything in that. go out. meet and join the world. make this world a better place for u

-when u start to not give a damn about what people say, that is when u know urself best.

set us some distance

i think u and me need to set us some distance. i find u pretty weird. u keep stalking people for what? u made twitter ur agen cari jodoh? the fuck? ur freaking me out

educational purposes

hello and hi. today i want to teach u all my fellow friends about the internet, connection and simple facts about it. as u all keep on complaining this and that. right.

1. tell u this. the most stable connection establish is yahoo messenger and msn messenger, to detect disconnectivity, simply watch ur YM or MSN tray. if this 2 disconnects, yes ur disconnected from the internet.

2. to check ur stability, always send 10 pings to www.tm.my using ur DOS. -15 is the most stable. the lower number is the better.

3. if ur downloading things from a free server. please do not expect u will get the maximum speed of it. remember, the is always people downloading the same thing using the same server. the only way to test the maximum speed and maximum capacity is to send something within the ISP to ur location or having a special private server or hosting. remember, again FREE server does not guarantee stable and static speed/connection.
that is why the company rate internet is expensive rather than the residential ones. we provide them with static IP and of course, a hosting domain as well.

4. talking about servers. the company connection u must remember, using 1 line is to much for the whole office. thats where ur own servers came in, that is also ur fax line, ur land line, ur internet line. so using 1mb for one office and keep complaining will make u look just stupid.

5. gaming comes in 2 type. 1 is by server, another one is by packet. but both thing is determined the ping stated above and tunnel. and connection depends on the gateway of each sender and receiver.

let me get this as simple as i can in bahasa malaysia :

kabel kalau elok, meaning dalam satu garis yg lurus, membawa data yg tak tersangkut, if kalau cable prob, katalah dalam 100 data di hantar, sangkut 10, so sangkut 10 tu, di hantar 90, so kau akan receive balik 90, itu jadinya lagging, jadi each time data di hantar dan di terima, yg sangkut 10 tadi tu akan sangkut lagi 10 in the next minute, so additional 10 + 10 + 10 + 10. ini lagging dan delay

speed internet bergantung kepada ke hampiran lokasi anda dengan exchange ataupun ibu sawat. lagi hampir, lagi bagus, IP address lagi static lagi bagus. dinamik pun bagus, tapi tak sebagus statik.

dan perlu di ingat,

1 MB speed anda akan terima download speed maxima 170-190 kb
2 MB = 190-220 kb
4 MB = 400-470 kb
5 MB = 470-700 kb
10 MB = 700 kb - 1.3 mb
20 MB = 2 MB - 4 mb

agak mustahil untuk capai tahap maksimum kelajuan itu. cable pun datang masalah jugak. fiber optik hantar data melalui cahaya, cahaya bergerak lurus. kalau cable tu bengkok? faham2 sendiri. kalau rasa nak marah technician buat cable bengkok apa kata anda sendiri cuba pasang.

kalau rosak, rasa2 kalau call 100 tu boleh solve problem, anda silap. anda sebagai user seharusnya tahu permasalahan itu sendiri secara basis. modem, komputer sendiri. kalau mengharap telefon 100, dia sendiri tak turun check kerosakkan itu secara fizikal dan teknikal. apa yg boleh di lakukan hanyalah monitor system. reset dan refresh. tu je tak lebih. tech akan datang dalam masa 72 jam hingga ke 7 hari.

saya tak 100% salahkan technician ataupun engineer. saya salahkan teknologi yg sedia ada. system yg di gunakan pun tak menyeluruh. kalau anda nak kata kami ni tipu duit anda, saya rasa apa yg anda bayar, tak sepadan dengan kerja yg kami lakukan. mcm MLM, yg bayar tu org atas amik. kami di bayar gaji je.

ini belum saya masuk kepada equation dan processing. nanti ada yg kata saya poyo. bukan saya nak poyo. saya cuma nak tunjuk je, siapa sebenarnya yang bodoh. kalau main fb ke twitter ke dota rasa slow, saya rasa ini tak sepenting hospital2, kedai emas, balai polis yg guna sistem 24 online seharitu. tau tak sekarang bedah pon pakai video conference? kalau video tu lagging tgh2 jalan? company hantar bluprint or business data tapi sangkut? kami tanggung tahu? kalau main game pun nak buat rasa nak caci maki saya, saya rasa anda tak hormat saya dan kerja saya.

saya kerja siang malam tuk buat apa yg saya rasa terbaik. jadi sampai sini jelah kot bebelan saya. dari english bertukar ke bahasa melayu.

ini sahaja update saya untuk malam sabtu. bertimbang rasalah. kalau rasa main facebook or game tu lagi penting dari selamatkan nyawa org, apa boleh saya buat. mmg betul hak pengguna. tapi pengguna berotak tau cara komplen berotak.

sekarang siapa bodoh. anda atau saya?

#ww 16 - edisi anak sedara



It feels good.

Back to where i was born. Visiting all of those people i didnt have the chance to meet for so long.


I can see deaths also have its benefits. Dad's relationship with his siblings finally restored. The also didnt go back and meet his siblings for a quite sometimes. Its been 10 years in my count.


The living must go on living. We carry on the passed away wills. I remember my late mak abang says : "yum. Ignore ur father. All u gotta do is to study study study. Prove him wrong. Make him eat his own words. Get a good job. Get a good life. Help ur siblings. Do not forget god."


Im proud to say even i didnt get the chance of visiting her for the last time, didnt go back for raya, i did what she told me to do. Thank you. Thank you.


Al fatihah and prayers goes to my late aunt who passed away on 4/12/2011 at 5.55 am.


Amin. May ur soul is place in the pious people and blessed by allah.


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breathe no more

its 12.59. 5 december.

i know its my time of the year. in fact its not only me who waits for my own date, i bet every people wait for their own date right?

but its not what that i want today. i learn that my aunt is dying. and shes been in that state for sometimes. and i dont know anything bout it. kinda sad. not kinda. im sad. i am really sad

my aunt is where i come and tell her stories that i didnt share with anyone. mainly i tell her my prob within my family. and she is the only one that my father listens to. since she is the most elder in my father siblings. she has gone thru too much. breast cancer, leg problem. and now she's old and worn out..its her time to go.

i regret that i didnt go back to visit her sometimes. during college years, and now entering working days. i didnt even go back for raya for 2-3 years. barely sees anybody in JB. regrets, sadness. everything inside.

in fact tonight i help an accident. african got run down by a bike. not so good for the african, presume dead by the medic when she arrive there. the motorcyclist is in a bad condition. did my part. and the rest is on god.

yesterday was helwa's birthday. the ex-girlfriend. i dont have anything on me to get to her. i forgot her num since im using new simcard on new phone. all i had is her email. and i did wish her on email. i hope she reads it. i meant nothing in that email. its just a friend wishing a friend a very blastful happy birthday. do not take me wrong.

and yeah. i gotta tell this. having a memory of this kinda sadden me much. urs is on 4th, mine is on 5th, syera is on 30 with atufah and mira is having the same date with me. its too much for me. too much coincident. everything i do, everywhere i went, u always there. ur always there, watching me from a far. and on ur date, my aunt pass away. and this makes the memory of u getting stronger in my heart.

its not like i didnt fget u. in fact i moved on. its just...i dont have any other words for it. im gonna call it fate. everything happens for a reason and i do believe there must be a reason for this. maybe god dont want me to forget u, or maybe god want me to seek forgiveness from u for what did i've done.

im done running away from u. im done hating u for something that u didnt do. im done denying facts. im done manipulating my mind. im accepting that my fate is this. i cant run away from my own memory. i cant cheat history, i cant cheat anymore. i just cant be in denial anymore.

its too much burden on these dates. i remember too much date. 9/11/2005. 27/4/2006. 10/10/2008. 15/3/2009. and 11/7/2009. count 25/11 and 4/12 and 5/12 in that. u see. the dates i've been remembering.
do not mention the place.

today is a little too much for me. u, aunt death's, my birthday. definitely nobody wanna be in my shoes right now. and understand what am i feeling right now. and tmr i have to face my boss and ask for 2-3 days off. and i hope she let me go.

i realize that i am slowly turning into my father. ignoring people. family and bonds. become workaholic person. losing bond with the world. losing the ability of speech. uniform is like ur another skin. another self. another u. i realize that this thing is happening to me.

cant really describe what is happening in my head, either my heart. what fills me is now regrets. and sadness. i try not to overthink about this, but its swallowing me whole. trying to get the best of me. all i can do now is take some break. recite her some prayers. pray for her.

i think im done talking for now. lets see what tmr have for me. and i'll let it unfolds itself. hoping for a better new day.

and today, for ur info, its world ninja day by the way. and my life is a series of coincidence? want a prove?
i am riding ninja right now, having a quick but yet not working relationship with @nichninja and guess what? this day is on my birthday.

ja. goodnight people. goodnight

XT


last time i was invited by this XT team and they put me as in the semi-carry / supportive pos. considering im retiring, so i decided not to reply the email. and i heard that they replace me with a girl. and XT is back in SMM 11 held in Mid Valley. they manage to get in to the brackets final. not sure on winning or losing bracket but i hope and pray the best for them

warm regards.

XT.9999 - former player of XT, KCR, LANC.INC
also known as qayyumx, vldvydtyd and KARAAA|-


p/s : to jas, dapat masuk SMM pon is a big achievement already. enough already. no pressure on u. u manage the team well. lets catch a drink later mate.





ok ok. updates

k. everything is now settle, the process of moving in my new house is finally complete. internet in, satelite tv also done. appliances done. furniture done. but not the kitchen. i need to get a new stove and gas and some cabinets soon. to tell u guys the truth, i am dead broke. new bike, new house, moving and everything. i barely have some saving in my bank account. and i think im gonna lay off from social networking sites. im no longer writes at those blogs i used to write in.

and yeah. i am now considering to blog in a new medium. vlog. but of course im not gonna be like that dumbfuck mat lutfi or hadi with their cracking i cudnt get it joke. and not some childish issue. like "cebok berak jgn lupa pakai sabun, or guna tisu kalau kau bukan malay". no. i wanna talk about what happen in malaysia today, or what i am experiencing day by day encounter with life experiences.

i've been blogging since 2007. about 800 posts. and 200 drafts. on endscape only with 30k of pageviews without using any ads or whatsoever. and another 200 post on vld, and another 400 post as guest writer at some blogs. and i think i wanna do something new. its just about time kan?

oh yeah by the way im now staying in kinrara puchong, off jalan kelang lama a bit, not in puchong. i took me 5 minutes from here to work. rather than in cheras which took me 30 minutes if no traffic jam and 45 min with traffic jam. and to tell u the truth. my next door neighbor is a china-dolls faction. LUL. (kerah cokeng kawe kalu kelik kije pukul 11 male. lalu lale saje gewe china-dolls ni)

and dont miss me much. im gonna work my ass off, earning me some money and gonna make myself stable once again.

currently i am busy organizing family day for my ex-sekolah rendah guys punya batch which will be held on 14/15 january.

ok its past 11 minutes my bedtime hour. will be jolting down some stuff soon. or vlog soon. please subscribe qayyumx's channel in utube. thank you.

goodnight. have a nice pleasant day tmr.

ja

#ww 15 - edisi special abam long farid kawin


pempuan melayu "moslemah" UMNO

"kalau kelantan kembali kepada UMNO, undi UMNO, percayalah. kelantan akan bebas dari belenggu HIV"

begitulah ungkapan dari seorang puteri UMNO sebentar tadi di TV3 yang saya 100% yakin berketurunan dan menetap di negeri pantai timur tersebut.

sejujurnya, aku takde masalah dengan UMNO. tapi aku ada masalah dengan orang2 dalam UMNO. kepala bapak dia. kau buat UMNO mcm agama? TUHAN? kau applied konsep KETUHANAN MELAYU dalam organisasi PERKAUMAN UMNO pulak? fuwah hebat. sangat hebat

pempuan, moslem, melayu. gila lah. undi UMNO ibarat konfirm ke syurga, sudah di tentukan hisabnya di muka bumi, bebas dari sebarang penyakit, bebas dari sebarang penindasan.

and tell u what, UMNO will save us from 21 December 2012 like the Mayan's predicted. whoever work in the gov sector, ur salvation will be heard, u will not be judge, u all will venture in the UMNO's ark and survive this.

i was like, ok i am wrong for being an agent for the freemason. yahweh and judas also didnt promise me with this kind of reward.

and tmr, i will go and join UMNO.

UMNO TERUS MARA UNTUK RAKYAT MALAYSIA!



now, enjoice!

everybody lies.

"unless u starting to grow wings, and having wicked horns and start to fly and bend spoon just using ur brain power, it might gave me the 2nd thought just to reconsider on obeying and listen to ur advise. and thus, keep my life in check. and i have no intention dying :p since u all become gods and devils alike"

- yum, 12.05 pm. 29/11/2011, pinggiran subang.

or bagi yg kurang faham dan bijak bahasa inggerisnya, translasi secara kasarnya adalah berbunyi begini.

"sebenarnya ini adalah ironik. anda seorang manusia, yang anda hakimi itu adalah sorang manusia juga, anda berkata2 untuk tidak menjadi seorang pembenci, tapi dalam masa yang sama anda bukan sahaja tidak bersetuju, malah mengunakan ketidak-setujuan anda itu sebagai perisai untuk anda membenci, anda katakan tidak pada mereka yang membenci, tapi anda juga sebenarnya seorang pembenci tanpa anda sedari, selagi anda seorang manusia, selagi itu anda bukan dan tidakkan berada di tahap di mana anda berhak menasihati saya walaubagaimana sekali pun"

LULZ panjang gila. biasalah. org bodoh mana faham bahasa artistik sarcasm yg aku selalu gunakan. selalunya akan berakhir dengan "yum kalau nak cakap tu ada batas2nya. bukan main cakap je, ingat org lain jugak"

and aku akan reply dengan

"ubat sakit bontot mahupun krim bontot tidak di jual kat sini"

treat stupidity with sarcasm. this is my policy.

schools just make them even stupid time by time.

hiatus for 2 weeks

i took a week or two rest from this social networking site since i've moved in to my new house sumwhere in kinrara. it takes 2-3 weeks to complete the move. astro, unifi, shits and stuffs. and im kinda busy these days. oh yeah and i went to kedah on saturday. spend 2 days there. went for abam long farid wedding. hihi. its my 1st time tido di tgh2 bendang sawah padi.


omg i tell u the air is very refreshing. sangat sangat sangat sangat. x4 sangat. sejuk dia ya tuhan. lain mcm. kat rumah aku pun tak mcm ni. eventho hijau jugak tapi the atmosphere is very different. 

here goes some pics.

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and i realize there was no picture in my hard disk. LMAO. ok will upload it tonight. lucky u the unifi guy is comming today. and astro tmr.

sigh.

ahahaha.

#WW 14 - edisi hidung berdarah non stop


#ww 13 dual pic special edition



stop it

i think i hurt alot of souls. with these bare hands. and my keyboard. i am too much sarcastic. i am too rude. i am too vulgar. im taking today as my stop. and i'll try to contain myself from saying things people dont want to see. even if its true.

im sorry.

#kem 3

dah 3 minggu lewat nak tulis pasal #kem3 ni. held on 28-30 oktober kat kem lubok manggis.

malas nak tulis panjang2 actually. tapi games2 semua best. pengisian banyak. mengeratkan hubungan antara alumni, juniors, masih study.

i gain a lot. eventho dah tak study pun. things u wont get working. things u wont get reading books. pure experience im talking about here. ingat senang ke nak rasa perasaan nak jadi kanak2 balik? u wont get it anywhere. u'll get it in WAWASAN UNITEN ONLY!


well. enjoy the pics.

 jilaka shah, ashi, nad

 haa tgk la sapa yg masak? sbb tu menang. jamie "yum" oliver

 ahahah YB sydney turun padang kot

 the girls

 the people

 the girls lagi

 my team. kumpulan 1.

 si batu api

ashi dan batu api

yum says part 2 - bangga hapa jadi melayu?

hi. i dont care. im gonna blog here. im working now currently. at bandar baru bangi. attending event on hari keusahawanan. got this one pakcik. at 1st he's bashing TM for having a lousy service, thats okay. and then he talks about being a malay and stuffs. and i was kinda pissed off hearing his statement. pure bullshits.

to tell u the truth. the only thing yg aku bangga dengan org melayu ni hanyalah sejarah lampau dia. zaman menentang penjajah. sekarang? i dont. u see, this pakcik is telling me about MELAYU tolong MELAYU. and all of those isi minyak kat petronas, guna celcom. beli dari org melayu. tolong itu ini and i was like.....BLERGHHH kepala butoh apa.

u see, aku malas nak argue banyak. sometimes org tua aku pon sama. penah dengar dialog mcm ni tak?

" jangan beli kat kedai kim seng tu, mahal, barang2 dia pun ntah mana dia dapat, halal haramnya mana. pegi jelah kedai sanusi tu, murah, hutang pon boleh hutang, aku pon bukan banyak duit"

u see? term melayu tolong melayu? sbb dia cina kau blame dia dapat stock dari rezeki haram? sebab dia cina dia jual mahal makan riba? melayu tak makan riba? dengan melayu boleh utang?

hello, tell me what are malays did to this world sampai kau nak bangga ? kertas tu pon bangsa yang kau paling benci cipta. apasal? tak boleh terima? konon taknak shopping kat carefour, the store, parkson, makan kfc or mcd, or dominos, tapi baju kau masih jenama zara, manggo, polo, shits and sorts. bukan ada label GEDUNG PAKAIAN MEK ZAINAB. mulut kau masih hembus asap rokok dunhill, malboro, jari jemari kau masih menekan keyboard cap microsoft, tangan kau masih scroll IPORK, mata kau masih tengok BREE OLSEN.

lain la kalau mulut kau menghembus asap SAAT, tangan kau menaip keyboard cap JAMSARI, tangan kau scroll iLuncur. dan mata kau menonton porno zarina annjoulie. baru kau layak berkata2 sebegini dengan aku

kau sedar tak? yahudi senangkan hidupkan dunia akhirat. apa sangat yg kau banggakan jadi melayu? ha sial? babi buat aku panas. fuck la. fuck melayu. kepala buto la melayu. apasal? beranak bangsa melayu kau straight masuk syurga? bangsa di angkat tuhan? kau nak beat yahudi? apa bagus sangat? aku tak faham mentaliti kau. serius. jgn suka2 hati sekolahkan aku. jgn ingat kerana kau melayu kau boleh tuduh org lain kapir suka2 hati kau. islam tak penah ajar sesuatu kaum tuk jadi extremist.

dan ISLAM TAK TURUN ATAS BANGSA MELAYU ITU SENDIRI. TU BANI ISRAEL TU DAPAT ISLAM LAGI AWAL DARI KAU.


persetankan bangsa aku, aku tak pernah bangga dengan bangsa aku sendiri. sudah la. jgn nak obses sangat. memalukan.

yum says episode 1 - Seksualiti Merdeka

so here i am. talking about this week hot issue, seksualiti merdeka. and i gotta say this honestly, i am against this movement publicly. i am strongly disagree with this.

why am i against this? look. i dont care if u wanna be gay, lesbian, hetero, BDSM, bisex, 3-some, 4-some or whatever shit kinky fetish and erotica u want, and if u keep it to urself its okay, do not go out and rape people, rape kids, kill somebody and rape me most importantly. im okay with that.

sure we can judge them for being sinned of choosing a life like that. sure we can say they are all sick and need help. they go against god's will and nature. and try to think back who wrote our book of life? its god himself. and lucky u, u dont have to walk in their shoes, living like that, hated by the community, mostly serbanitas and unorthodox muslims.

the forum organized by seksuality merdeka by ambiga is not a place where all buttfuckers, pussy-lickers, gay lord, dildo hunters do orgy shitz and stunts. and personally i think this is MORE DANGEROUS without that orgy im saying above. but with this talk and forum, their rally is to uphold the right to be gay, lesbian, bisex, transsexual which is agains our religion rights. as for us, muslim. we need to stop this from happening. if ur gay and so on, keep it for urself.

consider this is a virus. one gay person is infecting another person to be gay, i'd say this is dangerous. and this might lead to epidermic state of emergency. and guess what, gay is only of of the virus. try to add 4 more virus. catastrophic.

like i said. u gay, u keep it to urself. buttfuck behind me. keep it down. organizing talks, forum and movement like this is just provoking this country constitution which is ISLAM AS AGAMA RASMI (so not true). u can still see malay babi mabuk here n there, rogol here in there, pak imam buntingkan cucu, serbanitas merompak bank and so. u see its contradict here.

enough already corrupting this country, enough already with the unstable politics, enough already with getting this country to chaos.

and please. if u guys bashing me for joining bersih under ambiga, its totally u guys get the wrong idea. i agree with some of her ideas but i am not on par with her totally.

quoting from "ALONG" saying during kem 3 :

"kalau tak boleh ambil semua, jangan tolak semua"

dalam racun ada penawar, dalam penawar ada racun.

p/s: yes its true that god doesnt only create adam & eve, but also steve, but god didnt tell steve to buttfuck adam while buttfucking eve at the same time. or eve with shila while's steve watching and vice versa.



#ww 12


how does video game and life relate

imma write this short. to me, living life is like playing and MMORPG video game. where everybody start at level 1, without a class. and a naab stats.


so when were are at level 1, usually we need to level up until 10 to change class. so in the process of leveling, we go and do quest, do hunt for monsters. and its the same as attending schools, college, taking down exams, tackling obstacle, doing projects and stuffs.

and when we at level 10, changing class means getting a class, a job. in MMORPG there is several class with special sub-units. there is warriors, professors, monks, bart, dancer, thief, assassins, hunter, archaeologist, and there is so much class that we can choose from. this is the same with us when we reach level 10, we gotta choose our path, we cant stay that way any longer, change is needed. choosing a class comes with getting equipped. each class got their own equipment and mount. this is where we equip ourselves with things. cars, bikes, houses, and during this class-changing level, the objective is to level up again, and farm the better equipment matching our level. and during these level up there is another several class change situation n chance.

the higher the level, the better the equipment become. the EQ (equipment) is not only judge by how rich u are, its everything. every growth u made, urself, u income, ur knowledge, ur credibility, ur ability, ur skills, ur relationship, in MMORPG u will need a party to level up, the higher the mobs are the more people u gonna carry in ur party. thats the same with life, u'll need a very good circle of companions. which u can share ups and down. and that is why the marriage system implant in most of MMORPG

in most MMORPG only 2% of people will achieve cap level, which is level 99. 12% of people will achieve level 80,  another 20% stuck at level 70 and the rest is at level 60 and below. and people who is lazy to level up, and lazy to farm will end up scamming people, lie here and there, become a parasite. and this is what happen in real life. u see? how MMORPG and IRL co-exist and relates.

this is life actually. MMORPG games is based on human lives. it relates. to me, if u fail to carry ur game, u fail to carry urself. i aint losing in my games. and i hope so does u.

things you should know #dearfutureGF

its just sad when i think about having a not working relationship. thus, i decided to jolt down some imporatant notes here, for the #dearfutureGF, so she can take note, and think about having me as her BF, and destroys her own life.

its not like u cant flirt and get lovey-dovey with me. its just the matter of the timming, and a little bit of understanding about what i am, what do i do and when to do it. im not like u. im just not like u.

so here goes the list.

1. i am sorry for being a workaholic. and i dont text while im working. for whatever purpose.
- i am sacrificing you for my work. we're just a couple and ur not my wife yet. so dont expect me to entertain ur i miss you, i love you, i need you, i kiss u whatever shit during working hours. PERIOD.

2. i am sorry for being a hopeless romantic.
- i forget how to love, fall in love, flirt, and stuffs. sorry for being blur all the time.

3. i work till late night.
- dont expect me to come home, text u in the first place. i am tired the whole day working. i dont need ur rants about missing me and shits, let me have my bath, check my emails and at least have my dinner and watch news 1st.

4. i got a zillion tons of commitment besides u.
- i need to mend my family, i need to mend my own work, i need to attend my fellow clanmates, buddies, and next is u.

5. the reason i cant text and IMs is because im using android.
- it takes a hunter, to hunt a hunter. in other words, get urself an android. u'll pretty much know.

6. i do have uncontrolled social life and random hangout.
- i am a very random person. i can change from A to K and from K to W in an instant. so when i decide to do this, but something happen, i'll do that instead.

7. my twitter and fb, its MINE
- simply put, i can write, post, comments, tweet to anybody i like, please dont get jealous as u dont know with who or whom i might tweet or write, its just a matter of a friend, college, office mate, or my juniors back in UNITEN. so u being jealous is not reasonable.

8. do not get angry when i go for a EPL match hangout and i ignoring ur tweets
- its EPL, it not LOVE ACTUALLY.

9. when i dota (EXCEPTION)
- u know i hate to lose aight? u know who am i. the legendary KING YUM.

10. i planned for each day.
- monday watch mega movie chinese in tv3, tuesday i'll watch wwe, wednesday i'll do readings, thursday is discovery channel day, friday its shisha day, saturday is movie night and EPL, sunday its a rest day.

11. i just dont get mad easily. i need u to do this
- if i did wrongdoings, please tell me, save the time for me to figure it out and then trying to get to u back. ur mad u tell me, i did wrong u tell me. i dont play hide and seek. i dont like and i tell it. i need u to understand me and i'll do the same.

#WW 11, dual pic



wawasan uniten - part 2

in part 2. im gonna tell u guys a bit of the history between wawasan and me. when i join uniten back there on early 2009, during orientation. i aint like it. because of wak dol. with the feeling of seniority and stuff i keep telling myself, wth wakdol ni. aku dah 23 kot. treat mcm budak2 apa kejadah. siap nak sergah2 suruh patah balik amanah apa kelancau?

so again i was force to stay in the dumb cold hall listening to all the gibberish talk and shits. and wakdol was there to control the croud from going crazy. he manage to waken up the rage inside and i fucking hate him that time for treating me like a kid, but somehow during that time ayet was the TC head that time. the LDK we did manage to lessen my rage and anger. i had fun. that time ada sup, ayet, abg helmi, and ada 2-3 nama i forgot ah. haa kirin. seriusly aku rasa waste time duduk dewan tu seminggu. takde pengisian. but within the module and LDK activity, i manage to gain blood brothers. ramai. those yang selalu korang tgk rapat dgn aku, tu la diorang. LDK yg rapatkan kami. LDK punya module dari sapa? of course dari WAWASAN UNITEN. it works. see how relationship aku dgn budak2 TC batch aku. kuat gila. very strong.

and then bila habis orientation tu, ada baazar clubs and so on. i heard wawasan open a booth. so that time i think i wanna pay a visit and try to mock wakdol, and eventually i did. but i didnt register for it. i register under the ASTENA club. and when i was at wawasan booth, i manage to mock wakdol and mock and mock with lan. club poyo, pres poyo faci poyo (tak tau ayet was the pres)

and i join astena, did some teater, some show, play gamelan a bit and i was exceptionally active in kelompok amanah that time. jadi baim punya right hand man. asal ada aktiviti amanah je aku mesti join. suara emas uniten, berdebat for class BM, berforum la apa la for baim and cik mar.

and one day wawasan buat AF 5, waktu tu cuti, and aku malas nak balik. and aku register diri sendiri tuk masuk. duit banyak, masa banyak. oh ya, time tu ashra join, shah join, aimi, afik, kevin, heri, syu hitam, syu putih, paan, ros, ija, megat, zaf, mia, syaza, PENGETUA, daus kawan paan, nazren, amanda tu n ramai ah lagi. mula2 tujuan aku ke sana just nak tido, sbb dengar pantai, have fun la katanya, but sekali lagi, wawasan punya module buat aku tertarik. u guys know me, aku mana suka benda aktiviti sukan dan memenatkan. tapi ntah mcm mana aku layankan. best gila. war games malam tu. buat layang2. hancurkan istana pasir. ice breaking.

aku used to label all of those FD students poyo, tak geti hormat senior, tapi lama2 prejudis aku hilang. aku mula pegang kepada pernyataan "tak kenal maka tak cinta". sbb aku tak kenal budak2 foundry, FD, aku label diorang poyo. cara aku tak betul. sebenarnya they was okay. way much better dari those uitm crooks from my time dulu. and persepsi aku berubah. like seriusly berubah. aku mula rasa wawasan uniten sesuai dgn jiwa aku. lagi pun dlm wawasan ada je org tua tak sedar diri mcm zaki dgn ayet. hahaha. and since dari tu aku mula jadi backbone secara tak lansung tuk wawasan uniten. aku attend dinner dah 2 kali, design baju, poster tuk program2 af, krk, and mcm2 ah. selagi ada hayat, selagi ada kuasa, selagi mampu aku curahkan tuk wawasan uniten.

apa yg di perjuangkan wawasan aku sanjung. bangsa, negara, agama. aku taknak sia-siakan apa yg aku timba di uniten, apa yg aku berjaya gain. tapi kejap. kenapa aku write in malay pula. i look stupid if i write in malay. wth. ah nvm teruskan. and aku rasa aku really2 belong tuk wawasan. eventho aku takde apa2 jawatan or function yg betul2 menguntungkan wawasan, aku masih nak be a part from wawasan. during time aku dlm uitm, aku tak penah ada semangat dan bersemangat mcm ni. aku tak penah di dedahkan dengan benda2 mcm ni. sbb tu aku hilang minat. aku rugi youth aku kat uitm. bila aku masuk wawasan, aku dapat rasa kembali youth yg aku hilang dulu. benda2 yg sepatutnya aku rasa waktu aku muda dulu. satu kerugian tahu?

and balik je dari program2 wawasan makin ramai org yg aku kenal, n vice versa, best. sambil gain knowledge, gain kawan2, gain itu dan ini. takde rugi apa. in uitm, duit selalu jadi masalah bagi student2 ni. aku tak tau apa masalah. asal sebut aktiviti ini nak guna rm 30, mesti ramai yg menentang. semua nak free. look, aku bukan nak hentam uitm ke apa, reality. asal nak aktiviti ke apa, organize things, mesti tak jadi sbb ada fee. cmon la. rm 30 tak mampu tipu sangatt. sbb tu terbantut. sbb tu youth aku mati bodoh je 3 taun stuck dalam bilik. youth aku hilang dekat puncak perdana. sia sia.

guys, jangan sia-siakan masa muda, kenal org, enjoy masa muda, explore things. be young, be you. enjoy life.

and post aku pasal wawasan uniten tak terhenti di sini. ada 2 - 3 lagi part yg aku nak share.


wawasan uniten - part 1

before write things. and elaborate more further in this post. imma share my experience back there when i was in uitm. i didnt join any shit back there in uitm. i dont know who to blame. i was in the wrong ghetto back there, mixed up with some worthless punks. and the community there was not that great because it was full of malays. u can see hatred and those people are struggling for power and fame obviously. its was masscomm, full of malays. can u blame them?

i was not interested to join any of those shits. whatever u called them kesatria or whatever club. to me it was like a mandatory enforcement. i dont enjoy being there. even to join them. i dont know bout u guys. during my time, it was a small campus back in puncak perdana. people are dying to get famous and power. thats y. i dont have juniors since it was the last batch of my kind in puncak perdana.

ok so here i start the story. whatever u do in puncak perdana, haters hate. and when the haters did something, another haters come around the corner and turn the table. this is what i can see and observe. and too bad. i dont know how i end up with some losers punk back there and i dont know where to run. so i stuck there 3 fucking miserable years. i wont elaborate more. u guys cudda figure out what happen anyway.

so when i was in uniten, the enviroment is really really really different. too much club, but less people joining. and i gotta tell u this, those who didnt join clubs are really sore losers. my 1st club there is ASTENA. i did theater and dramas. and sing coir and play gamelan too. because uniten is a multi-racial uni, i cant see any hatred among UNITEN-ians. u merely see the clubs fighting each other, either mpp screaming and partying here n there just to fight about having class at 10 or even for a dumb-fuck watercooler issue for 3 years.

and after im done with ASTENA i joined WAWASAN UNITEN. at 1st i think, ah poyo la budak2 ni. faci shits and stuffs. and eventually i fall in love with wawasan. i was attracted by the unique of this club. in fact, among all of the uni in malaysia. WAWASAN UNITEN is there for 10 years. i was quite amaze.

that time the president is ayet. the more i follow WAWASAN activity, the more i fall in love with it. it gaves me new brothers and sisters, juniors, the support is so much better. there is no hatred among clubs. everybody is doing their own jobs. look at them. even unite in organizing activities. this is what im looking for in a club or society. a family. a home. finally. just for me.

action needed.

again today i nearly die on the streets. i think a new act or enactment need to be amended before those ambulance and police kills people in the street.

i was on my way to the office from taman mulia. right infront of the MMR2 t-junction. and that time its my turn to go since it was green. prior before on my turn, theres and ambulance in front. from the opposite side, it was a normal-non-emergency-ambulance. it was there for 3 turns of traffic light. and suddenly when i just about to cross the street, suddenly the ambulance turn on its siren. and guess what? all of the bikes and car of course la jalan kan? ambulance man. so i stop my bike almost crash it. what about cars and bike from behind? it was fucking disaster man.

im not being bias. im not blaming all ambulance and police car. cmon. u guys also had the experience right? its only a matter of time before those drivers kill people in the streets. its dangerous. really i have the thoughts of dying today because of the ambulance.

please la gov do something. enforce them to take exams. and let only professional drivers drive em. it might not too late to enforce the law or amend a new act or enactment. for the sake of the road users.


troll, trolling & getting troll

semalam ada drama mini di #twitterjaya about troll. kelakar. such a troller, kena troll and he turns emo.kelakarnya, bila kau #butthurt ramai lak yg support. wah buli n troll org boleh kau kena troll tak boleh funni shiiit

tell u what. i've been trolling since i was 15, when is start to play counter-strike in a local cybercafe. then the art of trolling grew. im now online gaming. gunbound. starting to troll people like, in a global stage, mock them, troll them, make them look stupid. i even learn some foreign language.

mexico, venezuella, egypt, tripoli, dutch, danish, all sort of cursing and mocking.

pada aku troll ni. small matter, do not feed the troll. do not fight back. buat tak tau je. aku puas n masak dah kena troll zaman sekolah. sbb aku gemuk and so. tak rasa apa2. tak luak apa2. ini baru kena troll kat twitter, emo. boooo. sad case :(

grow up k? get a job. be a man, pay some debt to the society kiddo.

#WW 10




Maya Persada


Dihikayatkan
Sepasang insan jiwa halus murni
Menggenggam teguh ikrar cinta bak mahkota
Meski pun badai melanda

Dihikayatkan
Secitra lambang luhur semara
Tapi menjadi legenda cinta musnah
Inikah di-Nas kan Pencipta

Melayar bahtera cinta
Di alun gelora
Menuju pantaian kasih
Penuh merintih

Abadikah kami di sana
Maya persada

tribute : Lefthanded.

6-1


apa macam? sedap? makan potato cip sampai 6 botol. pekena bege ramli sampai 6 biji? tuhan pon tak dapat tolong kau. HOME TUUU :(

FT : 6-1 (Manchester City 6 - Manchester United 1)

p/s : we make them look like a futbal wankers didnt we? #WHYALWAYSME?

17, student, bitches :(


for some reason im not gonna bash this little bitch. instead, i feel sorry for her. maybe she didnt had a ride in a big bikes, or maybe she didnt have the chance go to to motoGP either she is born with permanent brain damage diagnosed. i feel sorry for her. congratulations u just made the whole female look dumb.

CBR 250 kenal? ninja 250 kenal? Hyosung 650r kenal? kejap


 mai naik JND 7172 dengan abam yum meh. abam yum bawak adik pegi syurga :D


adik ni ninja tau? tapi one rider je. jauhhhh boleh pegi. kilat2 tuuuu

haaa adik ini dia hyosung 650r. kalau adik nak mati masuk neraka meh naik ni dgn abam yum

Muammar Gadaffi


u guys wont probably know this guy until the 2011 civil war in libya happens right? suddenly he died sumwhere this week and u guys worship and call him a hero when the reality is he did massacre and launch coupe d e'tat which he did it to take over libya from the libya king - KING IDRIS I that time.

read about the coup d'etat here

true. he was a symbolic leader of libya. true he did implement islamic value in libya. which was stated in a book by Edmond Jouve - My Vision With Muammar Gadaffi.

and i quote :

"... a country without alcohol, where the population abides by strict codes of male-female conduct that require both sexes to stay virgins until marriage—there are no dance clubs, no bars, no young couples strolling down the street, holding hands...I go in search of the town hotspot and discover it to be the local internet café, where crowds of young men play video games, enter English-language chat rooms, and examine—however surreptitiously—Western porn sites. It takes me a few minutes to notice that there’s not a single woman in the place. Away from the progressive cities of Tripoli and Benghazi, women stay largely in the home, out of sight. A local man, Mahmud, tells me that women here aren’t allowed to see or interact with males outside of their immediate family, including any would-be husband."


yes he is a hero, sponsored by NATO himself to take the throne and become the KING OF KINGS in 1969.

and i read some bullshit here

http://darisungaiderhaka.blogspot.com/2011/10/begitu-banyak-kebajikan-untuk-rakyat.html

i was like. WTH?

think again. why was the civil wars happen? simply u blame US. the conspiracy. those fucken sick theories of yours. he did kill alot of people in 1969 he never stop doing so.

mengamalkan system pemerintahan islam? does islam allow dictator-ism ? is he really fair? what does libya oil-money spent on? weapon of mass destruction? u guys can call him a hero. u guys can call him a warrior. because is ISLAM. right? judge him on what he does. its a quite long time from 1969 till 2011 and all i heard is libya is still like that. poor. his assets is frozen by the US? did u think why his asset frozen? why did he receive help from NATO?

simple equation, NATO helps him, he gives NATO the oil. when he's in charge, he backstabbed NATO, resulting in getting banned, frozen assets, blah blah blah.

- MY ORIGINAL THEORY ON THIS -

those 19 good things about gadaffi on that blog is purely rubbish and is viewed only by those islamic people. YEAH. SERBANITAS HERE I HIGHLIGHT. MIND YOU.

and during his years serving as a king in libya. he does seek acceptance from those ILLUMINATI nations. including VLADMIR PUTIN. i cant believe u guys simple wrote down and believe. my god.

he rule libya for so long, his citizens suffers. too much oppression too much corruption. he took down the kingdom of KING IDRIS with war. have u not heard about "mensucikan najis dengan benda suci, bukan mensucikan najis dengan najis".

i dont know. you can say he died sempat mengucap syahadah. u can say he died as islam. to me he did nothing but damages. giving us islam a bad name. but who am i to say that.

RIP
Muammar Gadaffi
(7 June 1942 - 20 October 2011)





for dad


another inspirational movie after JOHN Q,  and i did not regret of being rundown by heavy rain just to get my ass to mid valley today. and i realize, that how much that i did i miss my dad, and both of us is missing a lot in both our lives.

as u all know im not the fav son of his, either he is not proud with me. he gives me a lot of hell. but he never,ever neglect his responsibility. he's not there, but his money is, but still he;s not there, if he' there he wud beat me up. and mock me. as for i am that time. a fat fuck without any brain at all. and i gotta tell u this, all of those sufferings, help me build up my ego. build up myself. i aint easy to be bullied and fall down.

i was told to go to school by my own and go home alike. i dont really remember how, but i manage to get to school. and home safely for the week. but than mom saved me, hired a school van. HAHA.

ok enough reminiscing the old times. what pass is pass. now. here i am. dad bought me a superbike last raya. i cudnt thanks him much, and today, i gotta tell u this, i miss my dad. both of us cant return all of the years we should spend together, all the-get-to-know either kiss and hug session,

i just want to say, thank you dad, thank you very much. and i kinda miss you.

thanks dad, for being one for me, for being an asshole, for being one of a hell,  and i dont mind if ur not proud with me, im proud with u, u raised little bro well. u deserve the best dad award. at least u did leave a legacy behind. little bro get all A's in every major exam, while i, am a perfect gamer was ever created.

again. THANK YOU ABAH.

p/s : i cant imagine if i told him this. either salam cium tangan during hari raya. #thatawkwardmoment #truestory

#WW 9


Friendster I-cafe Dota Tourney October 2011

 waaa KCR LIAO

 naaab vs -_- *facepalm*

 drafting phase
 tapau shizuma

 kena tapau

the league punya board

Word(s) of the day

blogger. penulis buku. effort. merajuk. kawan-kawan. rumah sewa. kantolkan. tido. keyboard warrior. kawan makan kawan. bergadoh

cc : masrul azlan, ashra hakim.

sejak aku dgn ashi blah, things were never the same

apalah nak jadi dengan dunia

melayu-lo-logy

hai kawan2. hari ini saya ingin berkongsi sedikit sebanyak terminalogi bagi beberapa istilah dari bahasa ingeris kepada bahasa melayu. tak perlukan google translate mahupun oxford absolute-perfect dictionary untuk me-nyah-tata-bahasakan terminalogi ini.

SOLAR STORM - percikkan api narakka (narakka di eja sebegitu untuk mengekalkan unsur-unsur mistik)

MOON HALO EFFECT - hentaman terakhir dari narakka

AURORA - cahaya kemarahaan dan bala dari langit seperti dalam hadis.

untuk harini. 3 terms je.

kbai

CRY


I have seen peace. I have seen pain,
Resting on the shoulders of your name.
Do you see the truth through all their lies?
Do you see the world through troubled eyes?
And if you want to talk about it anymore,
Lie here on the floor and cry on my shoulder,
I'm a friend.

I have seen birth. I have seen death.
Lived to see a lover's final breath.
Do you see my guilt? Should I feel fright?
Is the fire of hesitation burning bright?
And if you want to talk about it once again,
On you I depend. I'll cry on your shoulder.

You're a friend.

You and I have been through many things.
I'll hold on to your heart.
I wouldn't cry for anything,
But don't go tearing your life apart.

I have seen fear. I have seen faith.
Seen the look of anger on your face.
And if you want to talk about what will be,
Come and sit with me, and cry on my shoulder,
I'm a friend.
And if you want to talk about it anymore,
Lie here on the floor and cry on my shoulder,
I'm a friend.

#ww 8 - SPECIAL EDITION


THE MILLIONS

 situation : nobody cries for them, or at least one time per year. per person. lets distribute to nominal distribution. maybe 1 house 0.5 ratio?
situation : everybody cries for him. father of all invention. a revolutionary. an inventor.

i troll some, i got whack and bashed so much,
-dead people yum, its no fun to talk about dead people-
-tak kira la agama apa pon dia tapi kita di ajar tuk respect org mati-
-aku tak hina org yang dah mati- (YEAH FUCKING RIGHT)
-aku rasa kita dalam posisi tak boleh nak judge dia kot, tak kesah la ayah dia islam ke dia kafir ke-

KEPALA BUTOH TAU? YANG KAU MAIN HASHTAG #URMOMSOFAT TU APA KEPALA BABI? MANA MORALITY KAU? ORG HIDUP KAU JADIKAN BAHAN. ORG MATI TAK BOLEH? KEPALA BANA AYAH KAU

REALITY IS, HE DIDNT CURE HUNGER, SO DOES GAGA AND BIEBER. AND WHAT RIGHT DOES THAT MAKE YOU TO MOCK ME? HA? DID U EVEN TAKE OUT A NOTE OF RM 50 AND SLIDE IT DOWN THRU HE MONEY HOLE IN A MOSQUE?


and who are u to tell me this and that? question urself. have u spend 30 minutes to watch bersamamu on wednesday, and watch one hell of a family raising a kid in a half wrecked shelter without electricity, treated water, and earns rm 5.50 per day and not even have the ability to talk? and after finished watching did u rush into the nearest cash deposit machine and bank in what ever u had left in ur wallet? and if u did all of these. YES, YOU ARE IN A POSITION TO TELL ME THIS AND THAT MOTHER FUCKIN BITCH WHO CUDNT EVEN AFFORD YOURSELF A PROPER CLOTHING. AND YEAH UR FROM THE FUCKIN FAMOUS IIUM. BITCHES BELONG THERE AS FAR AS I KNOW

dont u talk about "REZEKI MANUSIA LAIN2" im talking about what are u doing, what are u gonna do and what are u thinking? bitch wheres ur brain? im telling u.

planet x


look at it. LOOK AT IT SON. YES IS REAL. THE MOON IS KILLIN US REAL SOON. IN 44 DAYS

"SOON IT WILL BE YOU WHO WILL COME BACK BEGGING TO ME" - Sylvia Ganush


that bigger outer circle is planet X,
the inside outer circle of planet X is planet nibiru which u can call it planet Y
and the glowing dot is the moon.


and the fool whom is reading this is from earth and probably a moron


hey i got some idea. its fun.
lets do some easy and simple maths equation here just by using our imagination.


if X is > than Y and Y is > than moon, what will happen if ;


X hits Y and both X + Y hit the moon? 


and if X didnt hit Y, that doesnt make Y hit the moon. correct?


and if earth is > than the moon, what is the probability of earth surviving those X + Y + moon impact if the ratio of each factor is X : 4, Y : 2, moon : 1 and earth : 3.


currently, up to now,


there is 512 comments and pending, and there is 512 types of stupidity inside. care to join?


u wud love to join. and trollers are allowed to laugh thru their imagination only. while fame hunter can hunt the facts thru THE ARRIVAL and FACEBOOK.


just what kind of person are u?


heaven wont hear u, hell wont accept u just yet. 
turn to yahweh, seek judas, believe in belial. u might get saved in the nickest of time


HAHAHA.

9999-sive. 9999-licious.

boleh jadi ini kali yang ke 9999 aku kata yang aku nak retire. tapi kali ini. aku serius. mcm 9998 kali yang lepas. aku jugak cakap yang aku serius kali ni. sebenarnya aku tak tau berapa serius kata aku untuk retire sebagaimana aku cakap dengan serius 9998 kali yg lepas. ok ini serius. like, dead serius.

sebenarnya. aku memang dah retire. i mean like, semi-retire. dalam 2 minggu dapat la 2-3 game. tu pon temankan paeh, steven, madi, rnd main public games. sometimes kena tapau. sometimes menapau. most of the time menapau la kan.

tapi itu bukan kenapa aku tulis warkah ini. aku nak menulis sesuatu yang aku rasa, aku dah kecewakan orang. aku bukan seorang cikgu, atau apa yang kau panggil sifu, tenaga pengajar, or babysitter yang baik. tak banyak benda aku dapat ajar pada kau. kau, dan juga kau. bukan sorang. tapi aku tulis ni untuk arep (crackerzx), steven (RazingNPH), rnd (metasymph.00) dan pizy (AJIN) sebenarnya aku tak tolong korang gain apa yang korang nak gain. korang sampai ke tahap situ dengan usaha diri kau sendiri, aku tak lock apa2 special traits pon dari korang. its all on u guys punya own effort.

aku juga nak mintak maaf pada rnd sbb tak penah nak bawak kau pegi draft game ke or apa2 game yang serius.aku tau kau kecewa sbb aku tak berikan kau peluang tuk kau main draft game. aku selalu suruh kau train benda2 bodoh, last hit, farm, belajar hide n gank thru fog. chase n kill sapa dulu time war. sepatutnya aku bawak kau, tapi aku selalu bagi alasan kau tak ready lagi. selalu kata kau kena belajar itu dan ini, kalau tak di beri peluang, mcm mana kau nak belajar kan? so aku totally blame diri aku tuk ini. sedikit sebanyak aku rasa bersalah, sbb tak berapa nak dedahkan kau. aku selalu suruh aku tgk replay tapi bila tiba praktikal, aku tak penah nak bagi kau peluang.

banyak lagi benda yang boleh aku blame diri sendiri. aku tak percaya pada kau, etc2. setakat ni aku percaya dgn steven sbb steven dah lama main dgn aku. di akhir2 kareer ni, aku nak enjoy each and every single game yang aku main. no regrets, aku dah decide, this is it. i want to end my legacy. i want to end it all. i want to seek forgiveness.

maaf, aku tak mampu dan tak boleh jadi seorang cikgu yang baik. contoh yang baik. idola yang baik.

pada anak2 buah yang lain, tak payah hormat aku sangat, tak payah nak idolize aku, tak bagus pun. aku bagus kerana korang ada, tanpa korang, aku ni siapa? tanpa Lanc.Inc, tanpa KCR, tanpa QB, tanpa XT, tanpa ksProxy, yum? adalah sorang key overrated fat fuck keyboard warrior. nothing more nothing less.