finally she talks back to me :)

as u guys know im a big tiffany fans long time ago *(but now im having a crush on t-ara's hyomin)

well.i managed to add her in FB which is her own personal account.not a fan page not a public figure page.

she did tweet me saying i should add her in FB due to her manager didnt let them surf the net often

and as i was accepted as her friend,and she spoke to me.

and that just made my day today in the office.

i smiled alone.

i dont care if i look like a dumb person.

well,here it goes.

p/s : if fany know im loving hyomin,shes gonna kill me LOL

definition

"malay - juga disebut sebagai "me-lay" adalah suku kaum di malaysia yang terdiri dari pada orang-orang yang pandai berbual dan berjanji manis sahaja (terjermahan abu bukima,wiki-me-lay,jilid 12,muka surat 124)"

translation :

"malay - also pronounced as "me-lay" which is one of the main tribe in malaysia which exist from people who lies and saying all of the sweets words (translation by abu pussy,wiki-me-lay,12th edition,page 124)"

p/s : hanya rekaan semata2 kerana takde host dota malam ni.bukan malam ni je.dari minggu lepas.haha

to those people who whine about takda rezeki,tak masuk la.i think u may need to rethink ur spending habits a little.its not god's problem if u suck at making a living.

to try and sell drugs.

see how it goes.

or.

sell ur organs.

ja~

muak

dah 4 hari aku study benda alah masscomm.semata2 mintak keje as assistant editor dengan copy writer

guess kalau aku dapat la keje ni katekan(insyaallah).shud is stop my uniten years? ngaaa persoalan yg sering bermain di fikiran ketika nak tido.

among 12 people, 4 made it to the last stage.and im the one from the 4.baki lagi 3 pempuan.semua..mak aih top2 gaya cara cakap.ntah dapat ke tak.we'll see.

well.im talking to somebody i didnt talk for about almost a year.now dia cuti 2 minggu.its kinda awkward dia act like nothing happens.dia ask for webcam..er while im dota-ing.just like always.sesungguhnya.aku rasa kekok.haha.and bestfren dia skarang bestfren aku gak.so nanti kalau aku terlebih layan nnt dia fikir apa. sigh sigh.

dah 23 hb.2 hari lagi untuk dapat comfirmation dari nini.will she? wont she? ahh dah mcm petik bunga.she loves me,she loves me not.ulang sampai 11501236 tangkai bunga.if she's not going.well me too.

i've decided not to join uniten dota torney.and not to go for MTV world stage.and my masquerade dinner pun.depends on nini.i can go alone.but...er..its gonna be real awkward sbb its a prom.dinner.well i'll look stupid if i attend it alone.so better if i stay home and play with my cats.

im trying not to view and update my facebook because i read some article says that if were addicted to facebook,its the same like were having some-sort of mental illness.obsessive.haha.its been a week.im facebook free whee.

haihs.i miss teater.really.jealos tgk astena perform tuk MKI dgn FSU haritu.gua takda.star takde.kamonnn.haha perasan star.

ok enuf crapping.

ja~ne

im busy

im gonna get very busy with some works i've been doing lately.since i got alot of time.im starting to write resumes.haha.damn uniten.how dare u make me have summore holiday at home.

i cudnt stand it.but i have no where to go.im gonna get a job and im gonna have some extra duit raya with me.

i got 5 tickets to mtv world stage on 31.but i also have a dinner on that day and dota torney on 31.

i cant be at 3 places in a time.

how?

well i guess now its time

its time to stop acting blind.acting deaf.acting mute.i see,i heard.but i act like i ever care.

u like to blame? ok go on.but dont make me say the ugly truth to u.just dont.i waste moms money? i waste? ok i waste her money.

what done is done and what happened is happened.people makes mistakes.and people corrects mistakes.we corrects things.but if the people whos doing the mistake still doing the mistake do that make us have the right to kill em? no. just let em be.

the past is the past.dad make mistakes.live with it.suck it up.and dad mistakes leads to mom rebellious act.again.suck it up.we have the opportunity to leave from the house.why u didnt take any chances to experience life after school? again.suck it up.

u have the chance.but u blew it away for 2-3 times.again.SUCK IT UP.

now i got the blame? walaweh.i was given holiday.as for my scholar having trouble settling it.i'll be back on track without u knowing it. im kinda late.but im not a quitter.much like u.

im not having this quarrel.childish.maybe dad and mom and u seeing me a lazy bumb.sleep whole day.eat.dota summore.well.put ur hands in the air and count.how many times.were i in batu pahat.since early of my diploma days.

im not gonna say it down here.and im not going to blame anybody.were in our age.golden age of youth.fighting among us isnt going to settle anything.find a way.im finding a way too.be more mature.more open.keep complaining things get ugly.they dont improve.

saying bad things.posting scandals on the newspaper wont do any good.its just harms us more.do u ever use ur brain to do any thinking before u do something.please.this time.dont do it again.

im done being stupid in this house.im done closing my eyes.im done being nice stupid and sleeky.

IM DONE.now its guerilla time.do things radically.u think i like staying in this house? yes im as much hungry as u.ever.how do u think i cud survive a day with only 1 meal? believe me i try to cook.but theres nothing on the kitchen.food. simple things as food. do u know food is our needs.not our wants.

when i see no food.how will i work? u dont have to yell here n there.

enuf fighting.as bad as they are.they're still our parents.

yeah i am a big fat lazy asshole who like to sleep for almost 15 hours perday and wake up playing dota and stuff.ur the only one with heart.i dont have any.peace yaw.

u dont know who really am i.ask my friends in uni.ask my friends out there.who am i actually.if u ever wanna get to know me closer.i'll be ur best brother.ever.

and this is my last advice from u

hate me as u like

silent treat me as u like

but if we keep blaming each other like this

none wud help us be back together

i know im just another people in ur life.just another page that u cud tear out.but once u know people.they cross a mark in our memory no matter its just a little scratch or a big hole in our memory.

here goes.

"you should start mending your own life instead of blaming the past or the people around you which doesnt change anything to your own good"

after effects

since i've left uniten.and left my seat open there.

i dont know what will happen to astena.

some people change to PRS.

some gone inactive.

i..

i dont know..

im lost right now..

i need people to guide me..

another pit stop

nothing much to write down.stuck in putrajaya here.

no car.

no licence.

no class.

less money.

no internet.

god.i am so messed up this time..

i saw EQ/BA last friday in alamanda when i was with E.

that nite EQ text me.but i didnt rply any.like always.expired credits.

guys.i am the type that abandon my own buddies and friends?

i didnt know myself.u guys rate me.

and i gotta cancel the hangout with luna this week.dad's barking..

gotta go back in BP..

i shud really tell her fast.before she gets angry again.

and again i cheated on E..

and how do u break a heart?

telling the truth?

or live with the lies?

i wanna runaway from being in someone's heart and i dont wanna store anybody in mine.

i just want the feeling to be mutual.not more than just a good friend.

hangout.having food.watch movies.and not saying aku kau like boys do.

i wanna be normal.

i wanna be the 15 years old yum.

who only thinks about games.no worries and cry about any girls that i encountered that time.

i just had my buddies that time.

god im totally lost now..

what should i do?

what should i do...

gonna be ok

lesen kena gantung.
extend lagi 1 sem.
kete rosak.
jobless.

oh what cud be more worst than this?

im going crazy this time.
jadi baik.salah.
jadi jahat.salah

abih aku nak jadi apa?
eh fak la budi aku buat banyak kot.
tak penah mintak repay.
tapi pasal jadi camni..

haih..dunia..

oh! tidak .com punya nasib.sigh...

wrapping up

i've been dealing with some issues lately.family issues.not that 4 minutes hot issue -___-

well i've been labeled the rude son.the ungrateful son.the father's regrettable son.yeah thank you daddy.i been longing for that title for soooooo lonnnnng time ago.

if u had ur eyes open.u'll see.now ur 50 and keep on busy with ur working stuffs.and of course treating ur staff better then ur children.i guess u'll be blind forever.i dont mind dad.really.i just dont care.u take care of both my brother its okay already.me? no problem.u can throw me out from the house like u did last week.i know how to get my own food and money.relax.i know how hard outside world.apart from u dad.been living based on the newspaper and news.u dont really know whats been happening in the real world.the news are overrated.

the story started last 2 weeks.my bro gets to enter teaching institution thanks to my mom bad habits of applying for anything in the internet.but he's currently doing his practical in batu pahat and only has 1 year to finish up what he's doing now.but as u know,parents wants the best for their child right? my parents force my bro to stop doing what he's been doing and enter the institution without his consent.

i was against this.same with my bro.he reluctantly join it.and when our family had dinner on last wednesday.i try to speak out.i'd say what went wrong in the family.i say it all.from the parenting.and deciding the children fate.and what i get? i got labeled.i got cast away from the dinner table.i dont know maybe the timing wasnt good.well i just dont know.

i gotta do what i gotta do.is that wrong? im not using harsh words or whatever flaming method or starting a quarrel.i just wanna talk and state my points.my parents were blinded.it cant be helped..

nah i just dont care anymore.im going back today.and i'll be back home again when raya comes.and then i'll be finish and gonna get work here in putrajaya.goodbye home.goodbye.

my home has lost its meaning.HOME.

does ur house still has its function?

go find out.