pre-top 10 bullshit.

2015 ended a week ago. i have been thinking about writing or make a list consist of the top 10 about things ; movies, musics, places to visit, experience, foods, etcs. right now i am currently gathering infos and doing recaps from last year and will write about it anytime soon.

to conclude, my 2015 was fair enough. theres a few things that i manage to get it done, and few more carry foward lah ke tahun ini.a year wiser from the old me. less marah-marah. less give any damn orang nak cakap apa. made new friends. sampai ke tempat yg aku tak pernah sampai. and i manage to climb kaki gunung rinjani naik water fall dia which i didnt think i could but yeah i could and still boleh hahah.

financially balanced/stable sejak takde komitment berpasangan. tapi kesal dgn kecewa sbb aku rasa tahun 2015 ni aku balik rumah adalah yg paling sikit. raya, makcik meninggal, kenduri apa semua langsung takde balik. raya haji pon tak balik. sigh.

work - makin lama makin gila. they decided that they want to run business 365 hari without stopping including cuti ke weekend ke which is yeah crazy. and yet belom ada pairing partner/successor yg actually willing and capable enuf to replace my place here. selagi ada daya, selagi boleh, aku layankan je. almost 6 tahun buat kerja ni. 6 tahun.

relationship - i havent date anybody seriously. but i befriended a lot of people. biasalah dalam ramai2 tu banyak end up jadi kawan. taknak pun dengar masalah kehidupan masing2 but entahlah. the 1st rule of nak cari makwe is jangan dengar masalah dia. kita nak dia jadi makwe kita bukan nak jadi penasihat dia tempat dia datang n pergi lepas luah masalah no no. that is wrong.

currently (last 2 months of 2015 till now) i am seeing somebody. i dont know what is going on between us and i can certainly say that theres nothing happening or nothing special. for now we're just enjoying each other punya company. berteman. somebody to talk to. and bila aku reflek balik what happen all these time is i waited too long to just to say that i like em. and eventually sendiri yg rugi. but itu semua bersebab.

and dgn benda yg lepas2 lagi. i guess what jerol said about me was right. i am afraid of letting people in. i have trouble letting people in because of what happen before. sure, mmg enjoy di accompany orang tapi when things are getting hot apa semua, i bailed out. i did not response. i barely say anything. how can u answer "i think i like you" dengan "thank you". gad this is so hard for the time being. im being selfish. and childish atm.

fuh. real betul menulis. sebenarnya banyak je lagi benda nak di tulis tapi sejak aku develop habit tulis n kendian post ni, aku rasa aku makin malas nak post benda2 yg dah ada dalam drafts. ada lagi ke orang tryhard berblog ni zaman ni weh? rasa dah tak ramai. ramai yg dah beralih ke micro blogging mcm twitter contohnya.

eh dahlah. nanti baru tulis lagi.

JA!