endscape: updating, as per requested

updating, as per requested

sup. hi. i am somehow still alive. haha. mcm biasa some days were hard some days were not. nothing much can be used to indicate my progress in life but, i manage to get the life that i wanted for now. a normal office hour time. i was bench to the office. now im doing finance, and sometimes properties. 9-6 routine which at first, a bit awkward to me.

i manage to experience office time. lunch break is freakin goddamn 1 hour. haha, selalu rehat unlimited, and boleh memilih makanan. and yup. theres time where i can go solat in the surau, so can extend the rehat time to 20 mins and another 20 during asar. getting used to it day by day. and i kinda miss working during the weekend. but hey, who am i to complain. been wanting this since like ages ago.

i was replaced with 2 young officers, who will rotate among themselves for the time being, for events and such. but something tells me that they wont last long, god pls no -___-

anyway. epi is now married. making me truly, the last guy on JG whos got...nothing. i build nothing, i have nothing. i havent done anything. i do not progress, i am stuck here, like this, wondering where and what should i do.

if u ask me what do i feel right now, i would say im lost. i could use a friend. with dots being 20k km away from me half across the world, i am a bit lonely for a guy. all im doing is just my routine to keep myself in check. work, go home, sleep, on repeat. us, didnt really talk at all. the time difference is just seems making things hard everyday. i sometimes slept at 3 or 4 tryna say good morning and greet her day properly and sometimes its so hard to get up early in the morning with me sleeping around 5 or 6.

and its the same for her. and i want to complain we are less having communication like we should and we missed a few things too. not much can be done now, and for now, im focusing on toning down a bit, have a little patience in me, trying and not to get mad while managing my anger and to channel it properly. to throw away this ego twice as majestic as everest? sigh.

mom's birthday is coming right up in 13 days. been planning to take the fam out for dinner later. seleb sekali dgn lil bruh's. satu kali jalan.

i think this is it for now. and below are the pictures of whatever happened between sep-oct