mood.

currently listening to :-

uverworld - corona
uverworld - i am riri
uverworld - earthly world

larc~en~ciel - stay away
larc~en~ciel - nexus4

billy talent - this suffering
billy talent - fallen leaves
avenged sevenfold - unholy confession
alter bridge - metalingus
alter bridge - broken wings

10 songs on repeat mode in itunes.
im off slaying people

stuffs which some aku minat some aku tak.

question 1 : hey,do you like fashion?
my ans : er fashion? no thanks.

question 2 : hey i got this several new games on complete DVD release.wanna try?
my ans : bring the jocks in.party on me!

haha i dont really give a damn about how i look like.style and fashion i'll definitely pass.dunno skarang trend lately semua nak bukak butik.when it comes to game.name it,i'll try it.

using myspace,using blogspot,wordpress etc2.whoa skarang zaman berniaga ke? selain butik some bukak bundle.haha sorry to say semua ni mostly girly stuffs kot.jual baju,dress,tudung,etc2 necklace,gelang ape jadah semua ada ROFL.n then kiddies 14-17 skarang semua sebok jual produk community diorang dlm bentuk t-shirt and i find its lame.sorry to say arep but that SINAC t-shirt i find its damn lameeeeeeeeeeeeeee lol..make money around 500 happy? i'd say that 500 comes from lame t-shirt,but hell yeah its money kan.sape nak kasi 500 for free haha.indie? fuck off.

i got several ideas about it,but tatau la this is all my personal opinion,so i feel free to kutuk or give complementary comments on this stuff,kau nak sebok buat apa? aku ade kacau kau ke? tak puas hati? please mail me.or text me.lets have our debate :)

pros :

1.simple yet result is very satisfying.

2.new media advertising such as blogs helps sbb kan skarang dah ramai celik IT,celik SLR.so now everyone wanna be a photographer,everybody wanna be a writer, so kepakaran dlm bidang IT tu jelas di perlukan.so people simply use google and enter the keyword,tadaaa so many list of blogshopping will appear.

cons :

1.annoying.oi aku dah taknak beli kot.aku dah cakap dah no thanks.still invite.sangat annoying.salesman pon kalah

2.everybody now jual bende yg sama.tudung,baju.design lebih kurang.and then there is jalan masjid india.ha beware,jgn tertipu ye tipah2 sekalian.masjid india bole dapat RM 15 kat blog tu dia jual RM 65.jaga2

3.takde lah lawa mana pon baju yg di design/di jual tu.haih tak terattract lansung pon.next.

4.nak berniaga mestila jgn just sekadar "jual suka2 + isi waktu lapang".do sumthing mestila kene prepare elok2.business plan,marketing strategy and etc2.jgn simply buat pikir nak duit je.later customer lari.

ok,enuff i think about this.
i'll cont some later.now im off for some brain-slpatting actions in manhunt 2.byeeeee

p/s : the eye can mislead,the smile can lie but the shoes always tell the truth.jgn tertipu kawan2

ah -.-

nak tulis sumthing.about nowdays trend and gaming stuff.tapi ngantuk.and its currently 3.11 am.

haha.damn penat.tak penah tido this early.well aku nak try tido lu then kalau tak tido in an hour i'll be writing those shits.

adios.gutten nicht!

StevenYong38 has leave Lanc.Inc

our beloved captain has leave the clan.sibeh.dulan me maybe.beh song la T_T anymore to play dota.uwa

no more great leadership,no people wanna diu for me,nobody gonna teach me chinese words T_T

StevenYong38,u were an asset in my clan u know T_T come back please please please i beg u

who wanna gimme barney snitson video T_T,who wanna play elevator killer with me uwa.

captain,i officially disband lanc.inc until u comeback and lead us T_T

-away-

a mess yg ntah sape yg bole tolong clean.

its been 2 weeks since the breakup thingy.haihs im losing myself.

im losing my mind
im losing my faith
im losing my thoughts
im losing my judgments
im losing my patience
im losing it.

im not a working human anymore.i sleep 16 hours a day.i do online and sit infront of a pc and i do nothing.not even playing games,or visiting website as usual.i just stood there,wasting my time..

i skipped meals,baths,phone calls,text msges.phone maxis aku dead for almost 2 weeks pon aku tak sedar.crap.my celcom awaiting its moment je to mati. for whatever the reason i dont know why.i know im taking it seriously.but i cant help it.haaaaaaaaihhhhhhhhh.

and now today im hurt again,damn badly and i cry myself to bed in the evening thinking about it -.-

megan fox = guy(whatta fuck is this prank?)

fuck it.fuck it each and everyone of the paparazzi,editor,journalist who make a discovery on this fact.fuck you all.thank you.thank you and now i dont think i have anymore reason to live in this fucking cruel world.fuck it.

FUCK YOU WORLD.

crap aku takleh terima.shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit

p/s : currently addicted to diazepam.luckily aku ada stock.haha i dont mind taking a madman's medication.cuz hell yeah im mad.

tag from ntahsape2.

hi.im back.but just for tag.i was tag by who i dont know.was blog walking and i see my name got tag.so hey stranger im doing ur tag.

1. 3 NAMES IN YOUR INBOX CELLPHONE?

-pass

2. YOUR MAIN RINGTONE?

-lagu yg sedia ada dlm hp ni.malas nak buat ringtone.

3. WHAT U DID AT 12 LAST NIGHT?

-playing dota with qhisa,steven,crackerzx and makang

4 . WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON U WENT OUT WITH? WHERE?

-mamat,apis,alip,epi n naim.futsal kat parit lapis

5. THE COLOR OF THE T'SHIRT YOU'RE WEARING? NOW?

-none.tak pakai baju

6. THE LAST THING U DID

-talk crap with crackerzx about sex education

7. 3 OF YOUR EVERYDAY FAVORITE ITEMS?

-pc,psp n microphone (vent)

8. THE COLOR OF YOUR BEDROOM?

-putih je

9. HOW MUCH MONEY IN YOUR WALLET NOW?

-RM 15.60

10 . HOW'S LIFE?

-miserable.currently taking anti-depressant.

11. YOUR FAVORITE SONG?

-currently billy tallent : surrender/lies

12. WHAT WILL U DO NEXT WEEKEND?

-off to singapore

13. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME U SAW UR MOM?

-pass

14. WHERE IS SHE NOW?

-pass

15. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU TALKED TO YOUR PARENTS?

-pass

16. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON THAT TEXTED U?

-s.q

17. WHERE DID U HAVE UR DINNER LASTNIGHT?

-pass

18. THE LAST SURPRISE YOU GOT?

-none since 1.1.2009,taun lepas tayah cite

19. LAST THING U BORROWED FROM UR FRIENDS?

-none

20. WHO IS UR BF/GF OR HUSBAND/WIFE?

-pass/none

21. WHAT DO YOU FEEL NOW?

-pretty miserable.

22. WANNA SHARE WITH WHO?
-dunno,lucifer,or azazel,or abaddon.maybe i'll share it with leviathan (btw they are all demons)

23. WHO KNOWS UR SECRET?
-some trustworth shit of mine

24 . THEY KEEP UR SECRET?

-of course

25. ARE YOU ANGRY WITH SOMEONE?

-yes i do.kae from UIA.may i take ur life please?

26. WHAT DO YOU ORDER AT MCD?

-anything large and makes me full.damn full

27. THE LAST TIME YOU FELT SO SAD?

-since last week until now.

28. WHAT IS UR WISH FOR TOMORROW?

-wish? pussies only do this

29. WHO WILL U TAG NEXT?

-no and go fuck urself.

notice.

since i've been hurt and heart broken.
i will stop writing for a while.
if you need anything just text me.
the only thing that can reach me is by vent and garena.

i'll be back.

-A W A Y -

hey there mr.ego

ego.ego.ego.1 question for this ego thingy :

"does anybody invent a device or tool to contain this devilish nature from consuming human minds and hearts alike?"

i met this one girl.everything was fine until ego came and consume her heart and mind,changing our path to the path of destruction.i tried to warn.i try to help her resist the ego.but still it cant be saved.my heart was broken.but i was prepared.eventho i've prepared but it doesnt seems right like what i planned.she could be the key to everything but again,consumed by hatred,egoistic,i truly regreted it.

this is not what i wanted.im not blaming you.i just want that ego between us to go away.i had enough with that ego of yours.i gave you so many chances to change.got a saying says :

"ikut hati mati,ikut rasa binasa,tepuklah dada tanya iman"

i know were all human beings,constipated by emotions and feelings.but if we really thinking that deep,and using our brain,a gift from the ALLMIGHTY,and try not to overreact,think about the cause and effect in deciding anything,making jugdement, we could eventually do the right thing to do.

yes i admit im kinda very sad and down now.but i did my best.i played my part.and i just cant hold it anymore.sorry.i just had enough of it.im just a normal human.everything i do theres a limitation on it.

well.i've just have to move on.put all of these past behind me.i hope you'll met a good guy for you.who knows how to handle girls with a good care.not like i do.i'll always pray for you.yes you always have been there for me.and im gonna be the same after this.i would like to stay longer if there is any chance.

this is it.goodbye.no regrets.thank you.thank you very much.

hahha tanak jadi mcm ni LOL

lol...aku obses gak..tapi takde la camni.ke blom lagi mcm ni? LOLOL

Surrender

yep.i surrender.

you can do whatever you like until you learn how to decide in your life.
we're arent kids anymore.

we grow each and every second.and each second travels fast and we cant and doesnt wait for it.
so,emphatically the seconds is waste,and each particle of time passes by causes the space in the heart closing small by small part,until there is no more place for you to fit it in.

so.and if could understand this.decide.play your part.i dont mind.i dont have regrets and i doesnt look back for what i did.

why i dispice malay gamers.

malay gamers noob.tau berlagak, mempoyo sana sini, cari gado.then bila ramai rasa kuat,bila sorang rasa kecut je.dia tuduh dia pastu dia pukul dia balik.noob.malay babi.mcb you malay ham kar chan la.


ni one of webbies game yg aku main.so aku join faction Malaysia and most of them malays la.then aku try usha dia punya forum.fuwah seko2 cakap lebat.berbual kencang seperti angin tornado "derecho".aku new comers dlm faction ni so malas cakap banyak.yg taleh tahan battle stat masing2 belom sampai 150K tapi dia punya lagaknya ya allah kaw2 siot.rumah pon kalau stakat duduk dlm ranch dgn palace pastu kau nak lagak,tak payah.

so ada satu thread kat forum ni dia bukak la suruh hit org.dia suruh hit kawan aku.kawan aku tu battle stats nya 200K+ and kat dlm thread ni seko2 post yg dia dah penah kalahkan kawan aku tu.aku cam wtf? aku sendiri tak menang korang yg dgn stats cikai,rumah cikai,days old pon tak sampai 500 bole menang? nampak sangat la penipunya melayu ni.haih.bull shit la rumah baru mansion,days old 400+ then bole menang org stats 200k? sak my bloody cock.sial la benci betol aku dgn malays ni.sorry aku bukan sakit hati ke apa aku tak penah menang attack tapi aku rasa diorang ni penipu.aku sendiri stats tinggi,rumah mahal nak mampus main dekat 1300++ days pon takleh menang.why semua nak cakap up? semua cerita nak gebang je.kuat la hape la.buat crime masuk jail gak.kene mugged dgn org luar tu selalu je.mana pegi kekuatan korang semua.lanjiao

eh tolong la malays.stop this act of fake honour.sudah2 la tu cite gebang.sakit ati kau tau? kalau betul bagus takpe.mcm aku.god of gamers.dah berpuluh game online aku khatam.even got the title LEGEND GAMER u know.sakit ati sial.kalau betol la power takpe.ni power kemende.power taik.sbb org2 cam kau ni la cina dok kutuk.jadi hinaan untuk melayu elite cam aku.

FUCK YOU ALL MALAY GAMERS.DIU LEI LOU MOU

p/s : i am one of the elite malays in online gaming and the legacy of mine says i never lose that easily.i am legend.i am qayyumx.the pwner of all.

VoIP : Voice over Internet Protocol

if you guys call yourself a true gamer and looking forward to become a professional gamer this VoIP might helps.personally i think it really plays a big part for gamers just like myself.

lets cut to the chase.what is exactly VoIP anyway? VoIP is a communication tool used by gamers to communicate each other.so if you think that chat is enough for gamers to communicate to another gamer then you are wrong.let me create a situation for you :

"a guild master,who had 100 subordinates gonna go guild war with another 3 guild which its members consist of 100 members each and how will you control your subordinates and coordinate defence and offence."

imagine doing that with chat.300 people in one room,everybody chatting.what you'll see? crap everywhere.so with this VoIP,what you need is just to command them by talk to them.and more over it gives you more realistic battlefield feeling.haha based on my personal usage lah kan.

so VoIP applications are Ventrilo,Hamachi and TeamSpeak.each have their own uniqueness in hosting a voice over.and if you all wonder why dont we use yahoo messenger conference or skype? both IM's drain your bandwith and it makes gaming laggy and also annoying coz you may need to tab out from the game and click to the person who do you with to talk with.with VoIP,all you need is just to press the hotkey and talk.like walkie talkie and push-2-talk function.

convienient isnt it? VoIP FTW!

ha below is the pic what is VoIP (im hosting a server)

1.the DOS is the server.
2.the gray one is Hamachi
3.Vent is beside the server

p/s : spartannnnn.tonite we dine in HELL!

anger management issue.

been in this fever for a week.runny nose and damn full scale body pain.yes i got anger management issue.i just beat the crap of 2 puppies which the owner if a fucking retard who dont have any idea how to keep his pet.the 2 puppies keep barking day and night which causes stressed-insomnia and this insomnia added with my hot fever with my hot hot heart and with the hot hot day the result is very unsatisfying.

i dont think that one of the puppy gonna survive,i did quite a good job on landing a perfect core hit to its fucking head with my wooden katana (i buy it from jonker street melaka its very cheap tho RM 10 and its fucking hard too.come try lah if u want some).and if the owner wanna try my baseball bat also can.come.i'll make you famous.

the demon inside shudnt be provoked tho,
fucktard dog owner,

go back to school and learn why dogs and pig is prohibited to kept as a pet you fucking KAFIRUN LAKNAKTULLAH.

p/s : jgn sekali2 mencuba provoke angin gila aku.maybe kau kenal aku ni seorang yg pasif.tapi kau penah tak fikir kau tak habis kenal aku lagi? jgn bermain2 dgn api.

fucktard psycho pusher.

sorry.awal2 aku dah cakap sorry cuz this entry might hurt some people.

ok aku tak nak type panjang2.simple points cukup

to my MSN/YM/SKYPE friends semua yg kadang2 fucking annoying :

CUKUP LAH DENGAN SEKADAR SEKALI BUZZ DAN JUGA MSG "U THERE?" TIDAK PERLU KAU ULANGI BUZZ ITU DLM SELANG MASA 15 SAAT SETIAP SATU DAN TERUSKAN MENAIP NAMA AKU SEHINGGA 5-6 KALI.AKU BUKAN TAK DAPAT THAT BUZZ OR TAK NOTICE YOU WERE LOOKING FOR ME.TAPI KALAU TAK BALAS OR BUZZ BALIK,OR ADA TANDA AKU SEDANG BUZY,TOLONG LA FAHAM SIAL.EITHER AKU MALAS NAK LAYAN,OR AKU TGH ADA KERJA OR TGH MAIN GAME.APASAL LA KAU SEMUA TAK FAHAM BAHASA SIAL? ANNOYING KAU TAU? KAU INGAT KAU SORANG ADA MASALAH? KAU INGAT AKU SORANG JE KE YG BOLEH KAU REFER? CMON.BAGI LA AKU SIKIT RUANG.USAHA SENDIRI CARI JALAN SELESAI MASALAH.JGN ASYIK NAK TANYE ORG JE.MCM NI LA MELAYU.DAH BIASA KENE SUAP.ADA MASALAH KE APA KE MINTAK TOLONG ORG SUAP.EH TOLONG LA SIAL.ANNOYING KAU TAU.THEN APA GUNA SIGN "BUSY" TU KALAU KAU TAK FAHAM BAHASA?

BODOH HAPA?

sekian.terima kasut.

p/s : tak nak kawan? kecik hati? tak nak chat lagi? pegi la mampos sama kau.tak luak pon aku hilang kawan mcm kau.go find a mirror and go fuck urself.

the most bodoh movie and ost in this world.

kau nilai sendiri.



OMFG why sooooooooooo bodoooooooooooh.

please la.aku malu.serius malu.damn.

no wonder malay babi.no wonder malay noob.duh.please la.save USSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

gyah.

you know.lately im kinda lost "it".most of my post is all about unsaid "emotions through out sharp and wise-cracking words which a few could understand and a few wont give a damn about it"

this time enough.im through with it.and with you.im not gonna let you hurt me anymore.never.ever.again.

hey.ever heard the phrase "revenge is sweet?" yup it happens now.for real.god again show his almighty power to this particular person who used to use me and make my life miserable as hell back in the IPTA life of mine.

dear friend.im not mad.either sad or i dont want any revenge on you.i really regret that "that day" happens.we had a choice my friend.but you pick the wrong choice my friend.im not mad that you hit me with that mop stick at my back.either u throw me with the ashtray right to my head.not to mention that you slap me in the face to show how great you are,to show your the one who dominate the "scene" right now.everyday i wish that day would never happens..but,why cant you pick the options you got by doing the right thing my friend..

i heard about you dear friend.what happen? why now? really im sad for you.why dont you ever change from "that time"..i know now is not too late for you to fix it but this early it happens..who knows whats the future holds for you.again im not happy with what happen to you eventho what you did to me was unforgivable.i still consider you as my friend.we been friends for 3 year bro.you watch my back and i watch your back since "day 1" in "kolej perindu"

remember my joke?

"relax aa baru sejam dah tak tahan.ntah mcm mane la nak survive kat sini haha"

yes we did survive my friend.for almost 3 years and a half.until i left you there with your so called "kawan hidup mati" friends.i never wanted this to happens.never ever.i really respect you as a big brother of mine cause i dont have one..see.."everybody" abandon you..

you got nothing left.i just "want it to be over between us."but i cant,not like i didnt try to help..you dont even stop..and i think about that night everyday.i wish i can take it back.i wonder why did you did it.it matters to me.

is it an accident? another mistake? it doesnt change anything.im not gonna fight back.its already finished..i still can do you any favors..but you have to learn to live with what you did.its over.you got my symphathy my friends.god the almighty.ask for his guidance and forgiveness.he knows better than anyone else.

p/s : "we must live with what we did in ourlives"

time.

i dont have time for those sissies.
i dont have time to do photoshop and photography for those sissies.
yeah im just another lazy bump.

i dont have any time for those pet brothers-sisters time.
i dont have any time for you to playing pointless games
yeah im just another fat ass.

i dont have free time just to satisfy your silly needs of yours
i dont have free time just to mingle around with the silly emotions of yours
yeah im just another spoiled brat.

still dont get it?

im just sooo not into making new friends, gedik2, touching2, emosi tak tentu pasal.pet brother ke pet sister ke go fuck urself.kawan baik? go fuck urself too.kawan laki? go fuck and smack ur face in the pavement too.im not jealous.i just think there shud be some barrier.

fuck learn to differentiate betweens emotion/feelings and logical thinking.
and fuck,if u need advice badly,dont come to me.fuck it.fuck with ur tears and so.and then wasted all of it in a stupid judgement of yours.

p/s : tak payah mengada2 boleh? im fuckin sick of it.each and everyone of "YOU" carries the same traits.fuck.

disarray

I've faced my demons
Wrestling these angels to the ground
And all that I could find
Was a thin line between
All the saints and villains
It was crossed in my own mind

Someday I'm gonna find it
Wish I knew what I was looking for
Inside the disarray
I woke up this morning
Don't know where I’m going
But it's alright
I wouldn't have it any other way

I’m struggling between the facts and fiction
I’m alone
But I'm alive
Everyone around me is trying to make a statement
Then there's me
I’m just trying to survive

p/s : i'm just trying to survive.

let me go

kay this dude might be annoying but at the same time his skills are awesome.im learning this tabs.

p/s : "you love me but you dont know who i am.so let me go.just let me go"
sorry.