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its been a while since my last post.im kinda busy lately.handling my pirate crew,doing some stuffs,this and that a little bit.

well.i manage to wear up a mask that i think people wouldnt notice.there is a lot of me that i didnt show up.well.im feeling like jolting down here.so people know.so when they know.they would have and idea.what am i feeling right now.

1.what would u do when u had a mom that doesnt cook.what would u do if u had a kitchen with nothing on it.what will u do when u had no transport at home.what are gonna do if u didnt have any money.

cook ur own meal? ask for money? call the mcd/pizza? get a work? ask for her to cook?

believe me.NONE of THESE works.

2.what is ur feeling when people keep asking u about simple stuffs as how to install these in ur computer.find me the meaning of this ______,find me softwares,how to set up this and that.help me look for cd key.

i am not a HUMAN GOOGLE.how does i find things? THIS HUMAN GOOGLE also does GOOGLING.

HTTP://GOOGLE.COM or HTTP://GOOGLE.COM.MY

effort guys.efforts.buat dulu.kalau salah.baru tanya.learn by mistakes.sighh

3.i had enough with racism.believe me.the malays,the chinese,and the indians are all the same.i find this country is beyond safe-able.none of the malays,the chinese and the indians are capable of proving me whos the best.

4.i smile because of i HAD to.yeah.fake SMILES.

5.things between me and eliza didnt work out very well.at 1st,when i still didnt had any feeling for her.she keeps doing it and doing it.and when the sky breaks into two.and when i already opened up my heart for her.she tell me to break it off.im FEELING PAIN down here.i tried to love u.yes and im loving u.but when im doing all of that u tell me to break it off because of things that didnt occured yet.i dont believe in fate which that we forseen without doing some effort.i DECIDE MY OWN FATE WITH MY OWN ACTIONS.u break my heart so bad u know.after all the things i done to opened up heart.i even force myself to do this and that.sigh.this is a bad joke u know.bad joke.

WHAT? U WANT A PIECE OF ME? CMON.IM TIRED OF BEING A GOOD PERSON.IM TIRED OF SHOWING A FAKE SMILE.IM TRIED OF ALL THIS LIFE'S SHITS THAT HAS BEEN HAPPENING.WHERE IS MY HOME? THIS IS WHAT? SHITS? GIVE ME BACK MY FAMILY.GIVE ME BACK MY LIFE.FUCKING GIVE IT BACK.

GET ME BACK MY HAPPY FAMILY.GET ME BACK MY MOM.GET ME BACK MY DAD.MAKE THIS HOME.A "HOME"