969 - talking about frustration.

punch dah jadi kale hijau. pertama kali sepanjang aku keje ni. rasanya bulan depan jadi warna merah kot.

tak tau nak kata apa. jarak antara rumah nak ke tempat keje pon faktor, nak bangun lewat pun faktor jugak. tapi takde la lewat. bangun around 630-645. siap2 apa semua keluar rumah around 7.15. kalau tak jam, sampai la around 8. kalau jam, 8-8.15. paling teruk kalau hujan or tak lepas nak menyelit bagai, pukul 9. freaking far kot. 21 kilo + dari kinrara jalan klang lama ke damansara utama near kayu ara sana.

tapi ni semua tak boleh jadi alasan kenapa aku datang lewat. gm aku duduk kajang kot. kajang ke damansara? 60-70 kilo. depends on mana kat kajang. dari bandar kajang tu 60. kalau jenis duduk prima saujana? sepakat indah? tak ke 80 kilo sehari dia travel. ok je sampai kul 8. but again dia gm. dia nak masuk pukul berapa, balik pukul berapa, tak jadi isu. kita yang kuli ni?

meanwhile..

i havent get enuf sleep since last week. yesterday is a day off. but i sleep around 5 and wake up around 7. probably my body system. automatic wake up call at 7 if i miss my alarm clock 6.15. terkebil2. nak bergerak tapi malas. badan lesu. zero energy.

2nd may. 1st week of the month. tons of reports and backlogs needed to be done within this week. i am not sure if i can go home or not. feels like taking a few bookoffs since i have been working during last sunday and saturday.

guess what, i got 3 more days of my annual leave. i shud have around 10 or 12, but under some circumstances, it suddenly jadi 3 hari. kinda frustrated. at least u cudda inform me or something. if ur going to punish me, pls say so. so that i can do some reality check or some soul searching. accepting my flaws and fault like a man. i did this to myself.

actually i shud be in padang indonesia now. but here i am. working my ass off..


mood : null
energy level : 25% left till tmr
willpower : 65%