the return of the prodigal son.

i went back to hometown last week. my lil bro getting engaged. given the circumstances that i have been thru for the past weeks, yeah why not balik. take my mind off for sometimes. seems like almost everyone is there when i arrived. the first question that pops out from their mouth is

"eh balik sorang? patutnya bawa la balik gf, kata mak kamu, kamu dah ada gf bla bla bla bla"

i can only smile. sedaya upaya control supaya tak tunjuk muka garang/panas/nak makan orang yg entah tak boleh dah kot nak ubah. terus masuk bilik. mood mmg dah out. penat lagi. malam sebelom balik tu kena sekolah dgn gm pj sbb behavior last week.

i have been skipping major meeting 3 hari in a row. masuk court HR sbb i filed a report against my colleague yg asik cuti isnin for at least 2 years. im mending my broken heart at the same time so everything was so messed up to one point it explodes and there was this clusterfucks everywhere all around me.

to summarize, work sucks. and i didnt behave like i should

i cant think straight. my judgement were clouded. even strangers dekat petrol pump pun suruh aku senyum a bit. toksah cakap kak nana dgn eda lah. diorang paling perasan. bos kenapa? masam je. bos okay tak, bla bla bla. i know they are trying to cheer me up. but all i need right now is sometime off. for myself.

and sambung balik cerita tunang tadi, so petang tu pegilah ke rumah tunang adik. sebelah taman je. kinda reminds me of ... never mind. i left the ring kat seine river in 2013. jambatan tu pon dah roboh. hahaha. belajar la juga sikit2 camne nak handle tunang n adat all of these stuffs. koyak, tapi layankan je.

rumah pempuannya. and those adalah hantaranya.

this will keep her diam sekejap for a while n not bothering me  

my dad, my bro, mom and tunangnya 

balik rumah and found her this fat! siapa bagi makan ni!!!! wiwi gemuknya kamu. and i have been talking to wiwi eventho dia bukannya faham pom kan. cakap pastu dia ngriauu ngiau je like she understands. pastu bila panggil dia datang meleset pastu baring. btw shes indoor cat. tinggal dalam rumah. makan semua terjaga ada sorang jiran ni akan datang bg dia makan isi air dia n cuci najis dia dlm toilet. pandai bawa diri kucing ni jaga rumah dgn paktam

tgk. betapa gemuknya budak ni compared to my arms. makan tido ngiau. 

and malam tu lepak dgn wan n epi. kebetulan wan pun balik dari kuching, epi mmg ada kat bp. bila dengar kawan2 struggle dgn life and compare balik dgn what im going thru right now. timbul la juga sedikit kesedaran. what im going thru now isnt nothing compared to them. epi struggle cari kerja. almost 3 bulan dah menganggur. wan minta pindah dari kuching ke putrajaya tapi wisma tolak everytime. we talked about stuffs. things, life. time heals.

i dont know when will be the next time i'll be home again. maybe raya. we'll see


BONUS :

the week before pegi manjong. dtg tengok tos kawin. kan berkilat kepala aku sebab botak licin hahaha. aduh... but dont ask why. these manjong fellas were just like family to me. more than teman sembang, lepak and borak.