selamat hari raya

selamat hari raya. i know its kinda late to wish selamat hari raya considering this is the 5th syawal. 5.52 am. i was planning to put up on several posts but i think due to i dont have any proper internet connection and laptop or pc to get it done, so yeah. this is it. multiple idea-post-related-during-raya-and-shits (RANTS) lulz.

so. hows ur raya? mine was so-so. mcm biasa tidur lepas semayang raya. lepas tu bangun tidur makan n bagi anak2 buah duit raya. malam raya 1st pegi parit raja raya rumah daus. u know, common things that i do every year bila balik kampung. the same people, the same house, the same activity. i didnt have much friend back here in my home town yet people recognize me.

honestly said, beraya dgn family is quite ok but raya dengan kawan2 is kinda..hahah entah tak tau nak cakap apa. a few tak dapat cuti panjang. dapat off raya 1st dgn 2nd, so automatically raya 1st dgn raya 2nd pukul beraya dgn family. of course institusi kekeluargaan adalah lebih penting dari institusi brotherhood. so kalau bagi alasan tak dapat la bro nak hadap mak ayah n family, i can always understand this. maklumlah. diri ni pun jarang balik. spend masa dgn family paling utama.

so last year dapat bergambar dgn kawan2. around 8-9 sekali datang open house. kali ni, yg muncul. 4 je. and ada few shocking news. next month ada yang nak kawin, next year pun ada yang nak kawin. i was like. peeeh this is crazy liao, the least expected members yang kawin dulu. *facepalm* ohhh ya. this year tak ada video ucapan selamt hari raya. tak sempat. and tak berapa proper kalau nak record pun actually.

tahun ni baju raya biru. but mcm biasa no selipar raya or songkok raya. i am sad because tak sempat nak prepare diri dengan benda2 duniawi mcm tu. but this raya cuti dapat cuti panjang. from friday to next monday. sempat la jugak balik johor, jumpa pakcik makcik, anak2 sedara. few of my uncles dah start sakit. ada yg kena stroke, ada yang sakit kaki, sama jugak dgn my aunts, sakit buah pinggang. sakit itu dan ini. i feel bad actually, for not going back, hardly make time to visit them. the regrets from mak abang's death still haunts me. tak sempat balik menghadap before she go. last jumpa time siapa ntah kawin kat seremban last year may or what. u see, nama cousin sendiri pun tak ingat.

next raya im gonna celebrate it with my JB family. beraya kat sini pun, entahlah adik beradik mak mcm ada krisis. duduk sekampung, tapi beraya rumah abang sulong, rumah kak ngah tak datang. apa benda la mcm ni. malas nak tegur, ego. hal orang2 tua, lebih2 lagi pasal adik beradik dia, tak payah campur. i did warn my mother pasal post2 kat fb. pasal social networking, pasal saying things that might hurt people's feeling dalam alam maya. lain reaction nya bila when we decide to give feedback to someone's status or post and other people might jump into either unleashing more and more feedbacks. either she want to listen or not, up to her. to my aunt here belah mak, post kat fb mcm2, bila suruh beraya taknak. till when?

so far raya has been good to me. this year ada rezeki lebih, dapat la menghulur lebih2 sikit tak mcm last year. i hope things will improve day by day. its 6.10 am. lets go for subuh prayer and than sleep.

goodnight.
ja.
stay safe on the roads while driving towards destination.