ho ho ho haleloya merry x-mas

27/12/2011.

rasanya tak terlambat lagi tuk aku nak ucap merry (multiply) mas untuk rakan2 aku yang ternyata bukan islam melayu moslem yg menyambutnya. eh kenapa aku tulis merry (multiply) mas ?

haa, sebagaimana yang kau semua (di baca serbanitas/hijabsters/yunarian/sekularism bodoh piang tolol isap HAWW lagi bagus)

dan silalah kembali kepada root berkenaan murtad, tanya diri sendiri, apakah punca terjadinya murtad.

1. lisan
2. hati.
3. perbuatan.

di mana selagi tiada salah satu dari tiga perkara ini terjadi keatas seseorang umat manusia, adalah agak mustahil bagi mereka untuk di jatuhkan hukum murtad. bagi orang yg cetek agama, jika seorang ustat memberikan ceramah, kemudian dia memberikan contoh fizikal dan lisan yang berkaitan murtad adakah dia murtad?

"ehh yum isu murtad jangan di bawak main, bila2 masa tanpa kita sedar kita boleh murtad"

ya betul, memang bukan isu main2. tahukah anda bila nabi isa lahir sebenarnya? ha mesti tgh nak google sekarang, kan? (bodoh) jadi kalau murtad semudah itu mengikut kifarah murtad yang di tentukan oleh para ilmuan sebanitas yang tak berotak, jadi jatuh hukum murtad bagi mereka yang menghadiahkan sesuatu kepada orang lain pada tarikh 25 disember setiap tahun, maka jatuh hukum mereka kerana ia berkaitan dengan adat dan kepercayaan orang kristian.

"eh sekejap, tapi kan yum, aku rasa x-mas ni pegi church, baca doa, masuk gereja, bagi hadiah ni sekadar adat je kan? dinner ramai2 time hari perayaan adalah normal, betul?"

oh baru nak guna otak? agama sendiri kau tak kuasai, kau nak judge agama orang? kelakar lah awak ni adik2. ha tula lilit otak tu dengan sarung nangka, buat salut telor kotey gajah pun lagi bagus. helo? adat, itu semua tidakkan menjatuhi murtad semudah itu. jadi jika aku fasih bertutur bahasa cina ke russia kira aku ni murtad? sbb bertutur bahasa selain bahasa russia dan cina? sbb bahasa cina buddha perkenalkan, bahasa russia tuhan diorang cipta?

tak. tak semudah itu. hari gawai sambut takpa, x-mas tak boleh? kenapa? malaysia takda tuhan salji? kalau wish x-mas takut tuhan salji turun malaysia ni beku? hari gawai kena sambut sbb tuhan padi turun?

 trolled. part 1.

dah tu, amalan beri memberi ni, time x-mas je, kenapa di guna pakai time aidilfitri? bukan ke pengertian aidilfitri tu hari kemenangan bagi umat islam yang telah berperang dengan hawa nafsu sendiri, bukan untuk membazir beri sana sini ikut nafsu, shopping sakan ikut nafsu? apa alasan kau? engkau siapa nak jatuh hukum murtad bagi satu frasa yang entah sahih atau tidak berkenaan kelahiran nabi isa mengikut versi bible? (di baca- mesti kau masih google tentang tarikh lahir sebenar nabi isa dalam kalendar georgian dan masihi?)

ni ambil contoh ni pulak



ha ni nak cakap apa? mempersendakan islam? tapi kenapa aku tak rasa macam tu? aku rasa ni adalah cara yang sangat kreatif dan catchy tuk menarik minat budak2 muda yang suka kpork. this is something, creatif, berbanding nashid sekarang yang hanya bersimbolkan lelaki kacak dari lubnan bersuara sedap tapi pengisiannya kosong. pempuan hanya gilakan lelaki itu, dan adalah pemangkin bagi golongan bertudung lilit untuk menjadi lebih bodoh dari dasar dan secara basis.

am i right? am i right? u tell me? correct me if i am damn wrong. so i can learn from my mistake.

bagi golongan serbanitas, hijabsters, dan sekalian, semua benda dalam dunia ni jahat, freemason. burung hantu? haiwan freemason. tanah runtuh, taufan, tsunami pun sampai di relatekan dalam al-quran. 2012 disember tarikh hari kiamat? bulan ramadhan (di baca - ini adalah taakulan si bodoh sebanitas tarmizi abd halim)

oh my god for god sake, anda ni semua terlalu extreme dengan agama dan kaum sampai melupakan dari al quran itulah datang nya teknologi, sains dan al-quran co-relate satu sama lain. begitu juga bahasa, sastera, adat, dan meliputi segala2nya

yang sebenarnya jahat tu television, itu adalah dajjal sebenar, mengawal manusia dari rumah. menghabiskan masa 20 jam sehari menghadap television. otak rosak dek gelombang magnetik (theori berkenaan kanser otak 10 tahun dahulu)

jauh di sudut hati kecil saya, saya berharap agar golongan2 ini di kurniakan otak. mungkin zaman kegemilangan ahli ilmuan islam seperti ibn sinar, ibn jabbar, ibn qayyum, mungkin socrates mahupun plato beragama islam dan melayu dapat di lahirkan.

sekian. rant saya malam ini.

agensi mencari jodoh

(p/s: sekadar gambar hiasan)

nama saya qayyum abdul razak, masih single, menunggang kawasaki ninja RR berwarna hijau, berkemungkinan hanya sebiji sahaja di bandar kinrara ni, bekerjaya sebagai unit pemprosessan di telekom malaysia, tinggal di kompleks kondominium suria kinrara, masih tiada tanggungan yang berat selain menyara adik-adik dan parents saya, saya tak banyak karenah, wallet saya berkepuk duit, credit card baru ada 1 je RHB visa, helmet saya murah la tapi helmet magnum sbb helmet GM saya kena curi kat KLCC sebulan lepas. saya tak suka lepak kedai murah seperti di downtown or uptown dan boleh di katakan setiap malam saya makan murni, williams, seoul garden, old town, laksa shack, (sila rotate menu makanan saya setiap hari).

tapi sebelum tu saya nak tanya awak, wahai gadis2 sekalian, adakah awak memakai tudung? pandaikah awak memasak dan mengemas rumah? apalah nak di bandingkan sangat kerja mudah ini berbanding membanting tulang 4 kerat ni mencari rezeki halal tak kira siang malam untuk menyara keluarga nanti? berbaloi ke penat lelah saya mencari rezeki untuk seorang gadis mcm awak? soalan saya tak terhenti di situ. sudi dan sanggupkah awak menjaga ibu bapa saya ketika mereka sakit? mampukah awak memberikan saya zuriat dan anak-anak yang bijak serta taat kelak? awak pandai buat air sirap selasih tak? air teh berperisa peach? goreng jemput-jemput pandai?

maafkan saya sebelum saya menjadi lebih kasar dan menguris hati awak, saya nak tahu adakah paru paru, jantung, otak awak tiada kesan nikotin dan tar hitam? mulut awak? usus awak? pernah ke air syaitan melalui kesemua organ2 itu? sbb saya tak mahu anak-anak saya kelak cacat, kurang zat, di lahirkan cacat ataupun tak cerdik sebagaimana anak-anak orang lain. mata awak tu seberapa banyak maksiat yg awak telah lihat?

sekiranya anda mempunyai ciri-ciri ini, maka saya rasa, kita harus menyegerakan proses mendirikan tiang masjid ini, saya tidak keberatan untuk meninggalkan number telefon saya, dan juga kunci rumah saya untuk awak, dan hati awak.

apa kata awak?

the varsity of holidays/weekend definition for me

waddap folks. hows ur weekend? its a 2 + 1 holiday this week and the next week. so some of u guys might take this chance to go back to ur respective home town. having dinner with family, meeting buddies and comrades alike. spend sometimes together.

or maybe u guys are out there in the town dating with ur respective partners. have a nice day u guys.

me? nah. i have a very different perspective of enjoying weekend and holidays. or i shudda say in a varsity of version i cudda say.


version A (forever alone):
honestly, i am the type who not enjoy crowded place, traffic jam. so usually i'll spend time in the office till late evening, and if there is anything in town i'll show up there alone. or if people gathering for something and i'll be there too after working.

at night i'll might be going out for EPL match with my homeboys or friends. having shisha, small talks or discussion, teh tarik sessions and so. sometimes watch movies or karoke

or instead if im too tired to go out i'll just hang around at home, call in delivery fast food, enjoy cerekarama or EPL myself. watch till u drop

version B (if/else i had a girlfriend):
again i will work in the morning and will meet/pick her up and go to the mall. fine dinning and movie is a must, while playing arcades is a YES for me. but instead of this, i rather pick her up, head up home. i'll be cooking dinner, and we gonna watch movie or DVD together at home. this is rather more suitable for me since i dislike crowded places and it gave me headaches trying to avoid everybody.

or take her somewhere else. a ride to the beach, anywhere, to enjoy good food. for what la i buy this sport bike if im not gonna ride it anywhere right?

and its okay if she refuses this, but occasionally, i only do date if there is any event in the town. art gallery, video game expo, PC fair and stuffs. i am not a dating type of person. dinner or lunch its okay, or a movie. but lingering around mall walking over here n there without any motive isnt my style.

version C (homeboys-staying in):
we'll cook / call in delivery, watch movie/EPL together, and play dota the whole night.

p/s: so, what will u guys do? me? im still at the office, finishing my work. good day lads. have a nice day. enjoy weekend!

a reason to sulk

rasa nak menangis. i cudnt even achieve my goals for this year. and i am still lacking a few items/goal that i've set for this year. less in 10 days, this year gonna end. yeah is gonna end soon. and im looking forward to next year. what it holds for me.

but not bad, this year, look what i got myself :

1. HTC Flyer
2. Samsung Galaxy
3. New Razer set.
4. A new home. A perfect new home
5. A sportbike.
6. A book shelf
7. A job
8. A picture of myself with dota idols.

this is 8 major goal for the year 2011. and whats left is 



 a god damn razer orca which is priced at RM 599
a sportbike tank beg for riders. Imported ones cost at RM 800 - RM 900 while local is about RM 200 depending on the size


oh and this is N-VIDEA GTX 650 HD. RM 400 - RM 500. depends on the seller.

menurut statistik, aku akan kembali stabil pada bulan mac 2012, skarang ini aku taklah sempit mana, tapi boleh la tanggung diri sendiri, tak semewah dahulu. semua gara2 mengejar harta dunia. tapi takpa. jangan alpa dengan kesenangan dunia. bila takde duit, kita akan sentiasa teringat yg di atas sana, kalau banyak duit, satu benda hapah pon takkan ingat.

belanja belanja jugak, tanggungjawab kena selesaikan. yg mana harus selesaikan sila selesaikan dulu, bills, hutang, bagi mak bapak n adik2, baru diri sendiri. 

p/s : sila berbelanja dengan bijak.

Deeper Conversations

its 6.39 pm. i am at the 3rd floor of the parking area of suria kinrara condo. and i climb up the ledge. take a sit. watch the sunset in the middle of KLCC and KL tower view. i was soaking wet in my working clothes. a sigh.
that is all for the moment. a long sigh and a double facepalm to my face. i was tired. and obviously thinking about things.

while im having a me-time on the rooftop, i heard a voice asking me.

"what happen? a long and tiring day? need a drink?"

i wasnt replying at all. keep on the posture of facepalming and after a few minutes, i turn my head to the right a little, i saw a woman, dressed in green black offering me a tin of nescafe. and i said,

"why, does it matter to u anyway? what will it does to me if i answered all of ur question?"

i know i was rude, but i dont know why i am talking like that to some stranger person whos offering me a drink. i took a deep nod down there. and after a few moments i took my eyes to the sky.

"beautiful isnt it? its not the best view but its still beautiful aite? u wont get this view anywhere, i pay a lot of money to get this place. and still, it doesnt give me peace at all"

.......................................

"for what all of these things if had not found any peace at all, what have not i done this time? why am i being ignored?

the women in green-black suit steps forward, and tap my shoulder, and without me looking at her she says :

"ur lost ur way somehow. i can see thru it, but i dont have any fixing to do with u. no medication provided. only u can find ur own way, ur life, ur goals, nobody gonna set ur goal unless u start to find one"

nodding my head down again, i answered 

"if i set my goals, i might leave everything, every person, every memories behind. and i dont want to lose that. i have faith. i have responsibility to take care off. how can i forget everybody else? i had nobody with me now. not even my mom and my dad to guide me. all left in this place is me. is me. the joke? its on me"

she replied 

"enough worrying bout the others, u have ur own life, leaving them behind doesnt mean that u gotta keep em away forever. ur just going for awhile and once u settle down with ur goals, come back here. those people will wait for u forever. u keep all of the burden to urself and u getting hurt each time u took all of those burden, being a hero each time. even superheroes need help"

speechless. and i watch the skies turning dark-orange and the sun is halfed in size.

"what about u? will u leave me? will u join me in my quest? and what if i lost u in the journey? to whom shall i talk to again? 

*small laughing*

"haha, u dont have to worry about that. i am always there with u. conscious, or unconsciously. i am always there, watching u from a far, help u in anyway i can"

she walks awayfrom me. leaving her footsteps echoes in the empty parking lot. i throw away my beg. and began to climb down from the ledge. i lie down. watching the skies. and it cries again.

closing my eyes shut, turn my head to the left, ah, its u tihani, thank you. thank you.


........................................


*sigh*




facing it

im facing another failure moment here late in 2011. i tried to take what i think belongs to me. i tried to make it mine. but when i just about to grab it. things happen. yeah it happens. people say

"what does not belong to you, it wont belong to you, it were never meant to be yours"

in bahasa, 

"kau kejar lah mcm mana pun, kalau dah takdir kau, qada n qadar kau, itu takde rezeki nama dia"

aite. i get it. i get it. no matter what i do. no matter how fast im chasing it. yes. what isnt mine is not mine to grab. i can explain me now as, im kinda fucked up, with a little twist of unseen frustration and a bit of depressed. 

look. rome wasnt build in days but it crumbles in a day. life takes a lifetime to grow old but death can take u out within a blink of eye.

enough ruining things around. im kinda sad for the moment. but its okay. i can manage somehow. i cant show my sadness. i cant show anger. i cant runaway just like that. facing it is the only way. to forgive and forget its easy.

to accept? its a damn whole new story.

but anyway. thank you for the things u done. you you you and several other you. 


so. whats ur #2011regrets?

this topic trends in #twitterjaya today. and im kinda busy to spam and share in the TL whats my regrets in this year.

so cut it short, there is several major regrets i have. setting me on a several hiatus state and a few drawbacks just to get myself in the right shape of status.

mainly its about job, life. blah blah blah. but instead of writing all of ur regrets and misery and stood all day being sad, lets do what barney stinson do.


"when im sad, i stop being sad and be awesome, true story!"

things happens aite? whether u like it or not, with or without u. this is life cycle. soon its gonna be ur cycle. take all of those regrets,  put it in a bottle, throw all of those bottles in to deep sea and try not to do the same mistake again.

i have nothing much to say lately. sure we cant mend certain level of sadness, rages, the surge of an emotion. but somehow. channel it thru the right way. stop doing damage to urself. or on anybody else.

listen to this song. cant embed in here. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b3c32wBYdU0

by james blunt - same mistake

and. nothing much to say. goodnight. have a nice sleep


ice-man

it was the best of times
it was the worst of times
it was the age of wisdom.
its was the age of foolishness
it was the epoch of belief
it was the season of light
it was the season of darkness
it was a spring of hope
it was the winter of despair

- a tribute to charlie dickens.

#ww17 - satellite controlling


self-centralization

there is too much things that open up my eyes currently. i cant just change directly. takut my friends shocked with this transformation. bole la layan sikit2. honestly i've change during these time being.

-crushing others moral is just sick. trust me. i did that alot in cybergaming n cyberspace. it aint fun when u start to realize that is so wrong to do.

-when ur ego is starting to grow big, the only person who can stop urself is another u. yeah another u. just like in the reflection in the mirror. u versus u. see what damage has been done.

-its only natural that u hate things that others like and they hate things u like. why butthurt so much?

-its true that i've changing quite fast lately. keyboards? it dont gets me anywhere unless the things u type is printed out and u start to do something about it. and my pride isnt determined by words that came out from ur keyboard. who the hell are u anyway? just another dot in this world.

-do u know having urself and keeping urself in check is not easy work to do?

-how about u repaying ur debt back into the society, repay the mortgage given. stop writing shit and do nothing about it. just what are u anyway?

-there is a lot more waiting for u rather than make everything dangling on a keyboard. do not put ur life, ur everything in that. go out. meet and join the world. make this world a better place for u

-when u start to not give a damn about what people say, that is when u know urself best.

set us some distance

i think u and me need to set us some distance. i find u pretty weird. u keep stalking people for what? u made twitter ur agen cari jodoh? the fuck? ur freaking me out

educational purposes

hello and hi. today i want to teach u all my fellow friends about the internet, connection and simple facts about it. as u all keep on complaining this and that. right.

1. tell u this. the most stable connection establish is yahoo messenger and msn messenger, to detect disconnectivity, simply watch ur YM or MSN tray. if this 2 disconnects, yes ur disconnected from the internet.

2. to check ur stability, always send 10 pings to www.tm.my using ur DOS. -15 is the most stable. the lower number is the better.

3. if ur downloading things from a free server. please do not expect u will get the maximum speed of it. remember, the is always people downloading the same thing using the same server. the only way to test the maximum speed and maximum capacity is to send something within the ISP to ur location or having a special private server or hosting. remember, again FREE server does not guarantee stable and static speed/connection.
that is why the company rate internet is expensive rather than the residential ones. we provide them with static IP and of course, a hosting domain as well.

4. talking about servers. the company connection u must remember, using 1 line is to much for the whole office. thats where ur own servers came in, that is also ur fax line, ur land line, ur internet line. so using 1mb for one office and keep complaining will make u look just stupid.

5. gaming comes in 2 type. 1 is by server, another one is by packet. but both thing is determined the ping stated above and tunnel. and connection depends on the gateway of each sender and receiver.

let me get this as simple as i can in bahasa malaysia :

kabel kalau elok, meaning dalam satu garis yg lurus, membawa data yg tak tersangkut, if kalau cable prob, katalah dalam 100 data di hantar, sangkut 10, so sangkut 10 tu, di hantar 90, so kau akan receive balik 90, itu jadinya lagging, jadi each time data di hantar dan di terima, yg sangkut 10 tadi tu akan sangkut lagi 10 in the next minute, so additional 10 + 10 + 10 + 10. ini lagging dan delay

speed internet bergantung kepada ke hampiran lokasi anda dengan exchange ataupun ibu sawat. lagi hampir, lagi bagus, IP address lagi static lagi bagus. dinamik pun bagus, tapi tak sebagus statik.

dan perlu di ingat,

1 MB speed anda akan terima download speed maxima 170-190 kb
2 MB = 190-220 kb
4 MB = 400-470 kb
5 MB = 470-700 kb
10 MB = 700 kb - 1.3 mb
20 MB = 2 MB - 4 mb

agak mustahil untuk capai tahap maksimum kelajuan itu. cable pun datang masalah jugak. fiber optik hantar data melalui cahaya, cahaya bergerak lurus. kalau cable tu bengkok? faham2 sendiri. kalau rasa nak marah technician buat cable bengkok apa kata anda sendiri cuba pasang.

kalau rosak, rasa2 kalau call 100 tu boleh solve problem, anda silap. anda sebagai user seharusnya tahu permasalahan itu sendiri secara basis. modem, komputer sendiri. kalau mengharap telefon 100, dia sendiri tak turun check kerosakkan itu secara fizikal dan teknikal. apa yg boleh di lakukan hanyalah monitor system. reset dan refresh. tu je tak lebih. tech akan datang dalam masa 72 jam hingga ke 7 hari.

saya tak 100% salahkan technician ataupun engineer. saya salahkan teknologi yg sedia ada. system yg di gunakan pun tak menyeluruh. kalau anda nak kata kami ni tipu duit anda, saya rasa apa yg anda bayar, tak sepadan dengan kerja yg kami lakukan. mcm MLM, yg bayar tu org atas amik. kami di bayar gaji je.

ini belum saya masuk kepada equation dan processing. nanti ada yg kata saya poyo. bukan saya nak poyo. saya cuma nak tunjuk je, siapa sebenarnya yang bodoh. kalau main fb ke twitter ke dota rasa slow, saya rasa ini tak sepenting hospital2, kedai emas, balai polis yg guna sistem 24 online seharitu. tau tak sekarang bedah pon pakai video conference? kalau video tu lagging tgh2 jalan? company hantar bluprint or business data tapi sangkut? kami tanggung tahu? kalau main game pun nak buat rasa nak caci maki saya, saya rasa anda tak hormat saya dan kerja saya.

saya kerja siang malam tuk buat apa yg saya rasa terbaik. jadi sampai sini jelah kot bebelan saya. dari english bertukar ke bahasa melayu.

ini sahaja update saya untuk malam sabtu. bertimbang rasalah. kalau rasa main facebook or game tu lagi penting dari selamatkan nyawa org, apa boleh saya buat. mmg betul hak pengguna. tapi pengguna berotak tau cara komplen berotak.

sekarang siapa bodoh. anda atau saya?

#ww 16 - edisi anak sedara



It feels good.

Back to where i was born. Visiting all of those people i didnt have the chance to meet for so long.


I can see deaths also have its benefits. Dad's relationship with his siblings finally restored. The also didnt go back and meet his siblings for a quite sometimes. Its been 10 years in my count.


The living must go on living. We carry on the passed away wills. I remember my late mak abang says : "yum. Ignore ur father. All u gotta do is to study study study. Prove him wrong. Make him eat his own words. Get a good job. Get a good life. Help ur siblings. Do not forget god."


Im proud to say even i didnt get the chance of visiting her for the last time, didnt go back for raya, i did what she told me to do. Thank you. Thank you.


Al fatihah and prayers goes to my late aunt who passed away on 4/12/2011 at 5.55 am.


Amin. May ur soul is place in the pious people and blessed by allah.


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breathe no more

its 12.59. 5 december.

i know its my time of the year. in fact its not only me who waits for my own date, i bet every people wait for their own date right?

but its not what that i want today. i learn that my aunt is dying. and shes been in that state for sometimes. and i dont know anything bout it. kinda sad. not kinda. im sad. i am really sad

my aunt is where i come and tell her stories that i didnt share with anyone. mainly i tell her my prob within my family. and she is the only one that my father listens to. since she is the most elder in my father siblings. she has gone thru too much. breast cancer, leg problem. and now she's old and worn out..its her time to go.

i regret that i didnt go back to visit her sometimes. during college years, and now entering working days. i didnt even go back for raya for 2-3 years. barely sees anybody in JB. regrets, sadness. everything inside.

in fact tonight i help an accident. african got run down by a bike. not so good for the african, presume dead by the medic when she arrive there. the motorcyclist is in a bad condition. did my part. and the rest is on god.

yesterday was helwa's birthday. the ex-girlfriend. i dont have anything on me to get to her. i forgot her num since im using new simcard on new phone. all i had is her email. and i did wish her on email. i hope she reads it. i meant nothing in that email. its just a friend wishing a friend a very blastful happy birthday. do not take me wrong.

and yeah. i gotta tell this. having a memory of this kinda sadden me much. urs is on 4th, mine is on 5th, syera is on 30 with atufah and mira is having the same date with me. its too much for me. too much coincident. everything i do, everywhere i went, u always there. ur always there, watching me from a far. and on ur date, my aunt pass away. and this makes the memory of u getting stronger in my heart.

its not like i didnt fget u. in fact i moved on. its just...i dont have any other words for it. im gonna call it fate. everything happens for a reason and i do believe there must be a reason for this. maybe god dont want me to forget u, or maybe god want me to seek forgiveness from u for what did i've done.

im done running away from u. im done hating u for something that u didnt do. im done denying facts. im done manipulating my mind. im accepting that my fate is this. i cant run away from my own memory. i cant cheat history, i cant cheat anymore. i just cant be in denial anymore.

its too much burden on these dates. i remember too much date. 9/11/2005. 27/4/2006. 10/10/2008. 15/3/2009. and 11/7/2009. count 25/11 and 4/12 and 5/12 in that. u see. the dates i've been remembering.
do not mention the place.

today is a little too much for me. u, aunt death's, my birthday. definitely nobody wanna be in my shoes right now. and understand what am i feeling right now. and tmr i have to face my boss and ask for 2-3 days off. and i hope she let me go.

i realize that i am slowly turning into my father. ignoring people. family and bonds. become workaholic person. losing bond with the world. losing the ability of speech. uniform is like ur another skin. another self. another u. i realize that this thing is happening to me.

cant really describe what is happening in my head, either my heart. what fills me is now regrets. and sadness. i try not to overthink about this, but its swallowing me whole. trying to get the best of me. all i can do now is take some break. recite her some prayers. pray for her.

i think im done talking for now. lets see what tmr have for me. and i'll let it unfolds itself. hoping for a better new day.

and today, for ur info, its world ninja day by the way. and my life is a series of coincidence? want a prove?
i am riding ninja right now, having a quick but yet not working relationship with @nichninja and guess what? this day is on my birthday.

ja. goodnight people. goodnight

XT


last time i was invited by this XT team and they put me as in the semi-carry / supportive pos. considering im retiring, so i decided not to reply the email. and i heard that they replace me with a girl. and XT is back in SMM 11 held in Mid Valley. they manage to get in to the brackets final. not sure on winning or losing bracket but i hope and pray the best for them

warm regards.

XT.9999 - former player of XT, KCR, LANC.INC
also known as qayyumx, vldvydtyd and KARAAA|-


p/s : to jas, dapat masuk SMM pon is a big achievement already. enough already. no pressure on u. u manage the team well. lets catch a drink later mate.





ok ok. updates

k. everything is now settle, the process of moving in my new house is finally complete. internet in, satelite tv also done. appliances done. furniture done. but not the kitchen. i need to get a new stove and gas and some cabinets soon. to tell u guys the truth, i am dead broke. new bike, new house, moving and everything. i barely have some saving in my bank account. and i think im gonna lay off from social networking sites. im no longer writes at those blogs i used to write in.

and yeah. i am now considering to blog in a new medium. vlog. but of course im not gonna be like that dumbfuck mat lutfi or hadi with their cracking i cudnt get it joke. and not some childish issue. like "cebok berak jgn lupa pakai sabun, or guna tisu kalau kau bukan malay". no. i wanna talk about what happen in malaysia today, or what i am experiencing day by day encounter with life experiences.

i've been blogging since 2007. about 800 posts. and 200 drafts. on endscape only with 30k of pageviews without using any ads or whatsoever. and another 200 post on vld, and another 400 post as guest writer at some blogs. and i think i wanna do something new. its just about time kan?

oh yeah by the way im now staying in kinrara puchong, off jalan kelang lama a bit, not in puchong. i took me 5 minutes from here to work. rather than in cheras which took me 30 minutes if no traffic jam and 45 min with traffic jam. and to tell u the truth. my next door neighbor is a china-dolls faction. LUL. (kerah cokeng kawe kalu kelik kije pukul 11 male. lalu lale saje gewe china-dolls ni)

and dont miss me much. im gonna work my ass off, earning me some money and gonna make myself stable once again.

currently i am busy organizing family day for my ex-sekolah rendah guys punya batch which will be held on 14/15 january.

ok its past 11 minutes my bedtime hour. will be jolting down some stuff soon. or vlog soon. please subscribe qayyumx's channel in utube. thank you.

goodnight. have a nice pleasant day tmr.

ja

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