dinner's is served.

i have been on a journey lately. on how to tame my inner demons. i dont know how am i supposed to feel. or react.

i feel at ease. finally, i get to be me.

#tua

sekejap je dah 30 tahun. rasa mcm 3-4 hari lepas umur 25. gila. but lately aku banyak fikir. bukan pasal nak settle down ke apa. banyak fikir pasal family sendiri, dan diri sendiri. umur2 mcm ni baru sedar yg tido tu kadang lagi penting dari keluar melepak dan banyakkan rehat dari keluar berhuha sana sini.

sekarang mata pun dah tak payah susah-susah nak paksa tido, lepas makan malam je, dalam kul 9 dah rasa lesu, minta ditidurkan. tak seronok. zaman awal 20 sampai mid 20, ok lagi nak force badan work sampai tgh2 malam pastu tido, n get back to work. now takleh. terasa lesu dia beb lepas keje. kadang takyah tunggu pukul 9, balik2 sampai dalam 630 tu dah out atas katil. padam

main game toksah cite la. i barely catch up now, n kena guna extra effort kalau nak layan mata dah tak awas. energy pun dah tak boleh sustain.

orang kata sindrom tua. gadamn i am really tua now.

2016 in a post, more or less.

hello. i know its a bit late for me to say a thing or two about 2016 because its already and almost masuk 2nd week of january 2017. i have been busy lately, work as always. and perhaps dah terlalu asyik sangat dgn microblogging twisder. neway, im gonna summarize about the year 2016 for me, and all the things i've done through out the year.

i think selama-selama aku bekerja ni, 2016 ni antara tahun paling aku gigih kerja. tahun2 lain gigih juga kerja tapi tak segigih 2016. dapatlah jugak membeli itu ini sikit2, kumpul barang rumah, peti ais 3 pintu, dah beli semula ps4, dapat pegi eurotrip dan sebagainya.

and yeap, finally selepas beberapa tahun, dapat pengganti untuk kerja weekend. finally i can rest a bit. kalau tak dulu hari-hari kerja, weekend pun sapu siang malam.

rasanya dalam banyak2 tahun, 2016 antara tahun di mana aku dapat habiskan few game titles, GTA 5, JC 3, quantum break, last of us, ffxv dan sebagainya. selalu satu tahun nak habis 3 game pun susah, dan agak amazing juga dapat habiskan last of us dalam masa 4 hari, u krazie?

and i personally think that in 2016, is the best year for music. banyak discover artis-artis baru, genre baru. n i moved on from storing mp3s dalam pc, kepada full-pledged spotify user with a lot of playlist. talking about digital age. and no more pirate haha since dah sub spotify.

2016 pun juga produce tv series yg best2 - blindspot, limitless, lucifer, outcast, and few others. its just like early 90s - early 00s'. best era ever. its like history repeating itself.

personal life? - pindah rumah, best decision i ever made despite ada la some part yg tak best pasal rumah baru, but doesnt matter, dah solve pun isu tu. dah kembali aman di man-cave *lucifer's lair*

besides, aku ada juga buat side income - juai android box yg dah siap di rig (boleh tengok astro ya gais, do contact me kalau berminat).

kawan-kawan pun satu satu dah settle down, ada anak siap. including attufah yg baru je engage last new year. wao. im falling behind. probably the last one standing dgn falah/wan.

love life? ended. tapi sikit pun takde rasa menyesal. probably the best lepas 2013. finally someone yg i could relate, share things with despite kena deal dgn dia punya isu konfident dan few things. such a shame it ended after giving it 2nd try. i guess were not meant to be. not now at least.

2016 - is the year of progress. a lot of things takes place, happened. some beyond my control, some not. and if you were to ask me, puas hati tak dgn diri sendiri in 2016?, yeap, puas. becos great things takes time.

2017 - is all about completing the goals, i dont have any specific goals yg di set ke apa azam ke, since last year is about progress, this year its all about getting it done.


until the next post, see ya
JA!

back to december 2016

hi. tahun ni eurotrip lagi dan this time, italy during winter. tak lama, dalam 8 hari. seronok dan ofc, penat nak mampus rasa mcm nak doa pada tuhan minta dia kurniakan sepasang kaki baru XD. sepanjang 8 haritu, pegi venice, verona, milan, rome, lugano (switz). best dan sejuk nak mampus. pegi dgn family semua kecuali aboh, aboh takleh cuti. jadi pegilah 5 beranak.

gambar dan diskripsi adalah bukan dalam chronological order. entah kenapa aku cuba susun dari tadi tapi entah tak boleh-boleh, jadinya give up.

pretzels dekat lake lugano, switz, sedap gila nak mampus dan murah juga senanya. around 2-4 euro/2-3 swiss franc. kat sini dok bedal roti dgn buah jela, nak cari makanan halal kena pegi town yg besar sikit. barulah ada kedai arab/pakistan/lebanese yg jual kebab biryani n stuffs.

me and ma mom at the famous lugano lake. lawa sungguh view kat sini

selfie dgn my mom di hadapan the grand milan cathedral. besar dan megah bangunan dia. whole bulding dibuat dari marmar dan penuh ukiran-ukiran santo kristian menghiasi  gereja ini. yg ni tak sempat nak masuk dalam tengok dan amik gambar, sebab singgah sekejap je. dalam 2-3 jam dan semua orang nak pegi shopping ~_~

the world famous balcony romeo and juliet dekat verona. sini la tempat kat mana epik shakespear romeo and juliet happens. dan dia ada juga orang letakkan mangga sebagai tanda simbol percintaan mereka seagung kisah romeo dan juliet. boleh naik juga kat 2nd floor boleh tengok panorama tapi nak kena beli something dulu dekat kedai bawah yg jual souvenir, pandai orang italy ni meniaga, mau naik? u kasi beli dulu la bos!

original italian gelato. ya tuhan sedapnya, harga 6 euro per 3 scoop dan boleh campur2. personal fav - kinder bueno, strawberry cheese cake dan nutella something-something. pueh hati, beso lak tu. boleh makan 2 orang share sebab saiz dia sangat lah besar.

patah tangan time dekat pisa, tergelincir, satu keje pegi hospital dekat area rome. 

lepak di vatican city dgn my mom, padahal semalam baru patah tangan

so here we are inside the st peter basilica, vatican city

ukiran dalam st peter basilica. again the whole basilica is made out of marble. takes a few centuries to finish this building. dalam ni penuh dgn arca-arca santo, dan juga ada mayat seorang pope yang di awet. 

gereja utama di dalam st peter basilica, im not sure which statue is which, tapi statue mcm bentuk mimbar ni melambangkan, god, holy mary dgn jesus, dan few angels di atasnya.

pegi lepak colosseum pula di rome. honestly, aku tak berapa minat rome. sebab kat sini ghetto gila babi. its like lepak pprt, ramai gila immigrant pakistan, bangla, negro afrika mana entah. sama je mcm pprt sini penuh bangla, negro indon apa benda semua. dgn bau jalan dia sama mcm kat thailand. building spray sana spray sini penuh grafitti. rome is definitely bukan one of the list kalau nak datang melawat lagi. nothing much here kecuali colosseum dgn vatican city. lepas tu punyalah ramai orang. pening-pening. nak jalan malam2 pun rasa tak selamat, berlonggok immigrant ni duduk kat luar lepas tu perhati tourist jalan kat belakang mcm nak merompak. 

lepak dgn menara pisa. yeap, mmg condong. ni gambar mmg tegak dan simmetri. camtu la condong dia kalau nak tahu.

lepak dengan mak dekat duomo di firenze, ataupun florence. kat sini, cam pelik sikit. milan jadi milano, rome jadi roma, venice jadi venezia dan sebagainya. personally, aku suka florence. sebab cantik satu, tempat dia cam rilex-rilex je tenang. dan tak la ramai sangat orang berbanding milan/venice/rome. tiada spray2 graffiti di dinding, takde jalan raya berbau dan perkara-perkara yg saya benci.

sempat selfie dng makwe kiut yg ada kedai knitting di florence. haha

ni kedai bikers di barberino premium outlet. basically sama je mcm jpo, mpo, mitsui premium outlet. tapi barang2 sini semua italian branded. murah gila, dan best gila. and its premium stuffs. 

bawa mak naik gondola di venice. 

proses pembuatan murano glass di venice. yeap venice terkenal dengan gelas murano yang sangat cantik, dan harga dia juga sangatlah cantik. kat sini our tour guide bawa pegi this murano factory glass, dia tunjuk la how the glass is made. 

sepetang di bandar venice

arena di verona. kat sini art shows, opera shows. verona pun best sebenarnya. tapi tak sebest milan/florence

trevi fountain di rome. kat sini sapa nak dapat jodoh boleh la baling duit syiling dlm fountain tu, cara baling dia, membelakangkan fountain, baling la syiling tu pakai tangan kiri, tapi menghala kanan. 

disclaimer, saya tak endorse sebarang kepercayaan pagan atau tahyul kat sini.

jadi, lepas 9 hari dan injury mak, balik lah kita semula kat malaysia. next year pulak jalan. mungkin amarika selatan? mungkin ke negara-negara balkan? 

jadi sampai sinilah post berkenaan jalan-jalan italy, see u people in the next post. oh ya, saya tak ada itenary ke apa benda mcm korang kaki travel ni suka buat, i just jalan je doesnt care about anything.

hiatus - nov

i havent been here much lately. in fact, this is the first time that i missed writing here for the past 9 years. this year is probably the busiest year ever for me. busy bekerja and fokus dgn kehidupan.

i could say that my life is quite balanced and stable for the time being. everything is in its place. i want nothing more than this. oh ya i re-buy ps4 again, and this time its totally mind and mine alone. beli pun sebab ffxv, 10 years in the making kot, i waited so long for this.

dapat main 3 hari lewat dari official release, dan dapat main sikit je sebab haritu pegi eurotrip dgn family.

1 week prior to my eurotrip, i accident lagi. hurt my ankle pretty bad, bengkak dan macam kaki gajah dah. wuu sakit. dan tak sempat heal properly dah kena jalan, and yep masih sakit dan bengkak sampailah harini. haritu kat europe hari2 jalan 20 km, 8 hari, balik sini, sakit kaki. the patch i got from doc pun dah habis, need to refill the good stuffs.

so far, takde apa yg best pun bulan 11 ni. semua mcm biasa. takde apa yg special. so takdelah benda sangat nak diceritakan. 

ja!