em.lately aku sudah hilang connection dgn real world.last week i sleep almost 74 hours.OD taking sleep pills.yeah.u can blame me.its not like im gonna suicide or what.i just overtake.i take 3 in 2 hours sbb pills tu tak working pon.so what?
em n then this week kinda busy.attend saniy's sister engagement, having futsal matchups, meeting blood brothers.karoke.shisha.eventho im still not over it.and still grounded for the things ive done, it didnt help at all.betul kata tya aziz.its so hard living like this.feels like every breath u take mcm satu big step yg sangat besar which ntah siapa tau we'll make it or not without any care.
em.to those bloodbrothers thanks for being there when im in need.to lanc inc clan thanks also sbb spend time with me.its a small favor i can do for u guys by managing and handling the clan issue.
im done talking with her.seems all my words pun takde guna.summore im just another big jerk in front of her eyes.yeah my future is gloomy like what my heart is now.im learning to swallow each and every second of it.whats the point of tomorrow if now u didnt do anything to make sure tomorrow exist right? some people just dont understand it.well some people do.
time passes by.people come and go.deaths and birth.its all karma.if she thinks only she suffers from it, she shud know i suffers more then her.yelah.im just a shadow.phantom guy.a little sacrifice for me pon cant.em i shudnt talk bad about cha.in fact i am not for ya.i a jerk.bad man.all i just know is having a partner just like u said.
if its the end.so be it.july is comming its gonna be a new book.im moving far away.far far away for sure this time.to those yg i remember when im moved away consider urself is a very good friend of mine.to those whos i fogotten and forsaken,i am very sorry.i cudnt bear to watch myself touchering and make u suffer with the presence of myself there.maybe im gone and things wud get better.there no heart feeling.i realized how unneeded myself in ur life.im just another pain.
so.go away mr sadness.go away very far.im no longer in ur territory.to LORD i pray,gimme strength to face this cruel world.
i never walked so far on a lonely street with no one with me.its it worth the pain with no one to blame? for all of my insecurities.
how did i ever let you go..
sooner or later
suddenly
last time i heard, u like to do what people tell u to do walaupun u didnt even like it at all
last time i check, u are very hard to decide what to do.
last time i remember, u are so goddamn susah nak cakap whats the problem and whats wrong
last time i think, u said biarlah apa pun.
and
this time.why are u making so much noise?
and again this time, why now suddenly u wanna voice it all out,why now u wanna find the meaning of adil, the meaning of decide, and the meaning of free life.
p/s : do you even think about it? well i did my thinking always 50 steps head.dont try to pusing ayat cakap yes aku mmg handal bercakap.no im not.this is reallity.
not suitable for those who under 18 years old.
pick one from this 3.gonna use for lanc.inc logo
updates.
-new look on this blog.
-100 things i hate post
-national sarcasm society openings (like i need your support,fucktards)
-password protected posts
-login to read (invited readers only)
-private sections
-walls of shame
-wanted (this gadjet i will fucking screw you,talking shit and sorts about you :) )
thats all for now.i need a fucking 12-hours-of-un-fucking-believable sleep)
cya hommies.
to those who didnt get the invitation to read this blog.you are most welcome to go to hell.go read signs there.tq.
oh.i forgot to mention.i fucking hate you.im gonna forsake and forget you from the very core of my mind.yes.thats for sure.
gimme rest.
im dying for internet connection here.so i got one.im fucking tired and i need a long rest.
