me, today

i woke up early today. another working saturday to me. and probably some other people too. arrived early at the office to park my bike and everything is pretty much routine. and today i have to attend some event in kajang. unifi launching, and my day begins here.

i was at this warung. what triggers my inner rage n anger is theres this one family having their breakfast. everything was fine till the mother loses control over her daughter. bila makanan sampai. her daughter loses her mind. bising. melalak. menjerit sebab nak air. the mom does nothing. tgk je. look, aku faham je. tapi cant u control ur own childeren? im kinda mad bcos her scream is effing annoying, and the mother does nothing at all. lepas tu bila adik beradik lain dia mula buat perangai orang kampung berebut air and tiba2 je jadi chaos.

i tried to play along. until my roti canai came. was pissed too bcos...ya know. tak sedap lansung. again i tried to play along. layankan. maybe its me yg super sensitive today and i know i can tilt easily and loses my mind in just 30 sec. i tried to get my mind somewhere else. read some news. and tgk twitter for any news too. and i scroll down and i keep on reading bullshit stuffs (yes i know i am wrong to scroll twidder time tgh easily annoyed). terbaca pulak budak2 ni dok bersembang this particular video game. everyday, the same shit. farm tu grind ni itu ini mcm dah takde benda lain nak buat or cakap (yes diorang mmg takde benda lain nak buat thats why) lepas tu trigger lagi emotional state aku yg mmg tgh tak berapa nak stable. and aku scroll lagi and saw the same people yg try to preach how to love, when to love, what he/she will do, his/her ultimate bla bla bla, rules.

ya know what. tak berpasangan juga. kat twidder juga. hari2 dok cakap benda yg sama. about the idea of loving, dream girl, how to treat him/her. the game. the pussy. tapi actually dia mcm tu juga. what for? i think im done listening to all of these bullshits (love advice. gaming bullshits from the same people. mat2 berita, mat2 yg sibuk nak komen whats happening - YES AGAIN I KNOW I AM THE ONE YG PATUT DI PERSALAHKAN SBB DAH TAHU PUN MASIH LEPAK TWIDDER JUGA KAN).

i think, we all needed some break from the social media. we tend to tell stories that nobody wants to listen. instead of talking to an actual person, we tell the whole world about it. people with less tolerance level and easily annoyed like me is not the person u should share ur majestic story about ur idea of love, how superior u are, and how good are in particular games. i just dont care at this moment. i think i had enuf.

im trying to do my part here by being less and spending my times less in social media and focus on what i should be doing. example, for now, work. im trying to restrain myself from tweeting or updating my status or whatever. its hard, but not impossible. what makes this even more difficult is some those people who tweeted the stuffs that i hate or annoyed is my friends. and theres no way to approach them without actually hurt their feelings. i dont know how to talk it out properly. i know some of u are tired of my bullshits too but feel free to come at me and tell me. i am ok with that. but i know people are not ok on how i treat things. i dont know how to sugarcoat things. or tell things without inflicting any damages. i am not that kind of person.

spending a week away from work, the city and hectic life, it teaches me something. how to be myself once again. how to keep things to myself, improve communication between people. instead of talking to each other in social media, i now look forward to real human interactions.

so yeah, u heard me. i think im done reading things i dont want to read, follow people who i dont want to follow or read his/her status update/tweets. i dont care about ur ideal world or how do u plan to live ur life. just becos im muting/unfollow/block u people or other people, that doesnt mean that we cant hangout and talk normally outside social media.

sure i can choose to give up my social media life. but i have other options too. instead of running away from it, why dont i filter things that i like and i dont like. we all have options to begin with. and i already picked mine.

so what will u do? and what have u been doing lately?

updates and selitkan sekali qayyum's weekly mixtape - 5

hi hello, its been a while, again *cough*. mcm biasa, i have been busy. dari awal jan till now march, baru la dapat nak rehat and relax2 sikit. and i baru je balik dari kk. wedding izaliza. my 3rd time datang kk. pernah datang few times before tu pon tak berapa nak berjalan sbb keje and something else. anyway kk is nice. tak berapa sibuk, tempat yg nak di tuju pon dekat2 semua dlm 10-15 min to each other. makanan ok, people ok, semua ok. 

actually aku dekat kampung. taking a break awhile sambil restore energy for a few days sebelom balik dan membusykan diri lagi. in the process to let go things and hopefully it wud go well and i will be able to enjoy my life a bit. 

nak upload gambar pun internet slow nak mati, so for now i'll update my weekly mixtape, see u guys in the next post. 

enjoy!


qayyum's weekly mixtape 5 :

believe - mumford & sons
last request - paolo nutini
one headlight - the wallflowers
hero - family of the year
big jet plane - angus & julia stone
across the universe - fiona apple
things happen - dawes
tiger stripped sky - roo panes
all the time - bahamas
and lastly, marian hill. the whole album or digital ep of hers. 

qayyum weekly mixtape - 4

here goes my 4th weekly mixtape, hope u guys will enjoy:

1. flirting with disaster - molly hatchet 
2. flaws - vancouver sleep clinic
3. rave on sad songs - jason collett
4. miracle - coldplay
5. w.t.p - eminem
6. devils - say hi
7. follow me - hardwell & jason derulo
8. i dont like it, i love it - florida ft robin thicke
9. true - digital farm animals
10. nothin' - dan and shay
11. the hills - the weeknd
12. stay - radford
13. nightingale - sunsut rubdown
14. L - tycho


quit a lot. tak berapa nak ada masa sangat so here it goes. 14 songs in one go. 

homeys

cant believe that all of my homeys getting married real soon. including this one that i consider is very close to me. my blood brother, from another mother. nonetheless, hes getting married. and this is my 1st time jadi best man for the day. i have zero experience jadi best man sebenarnya, tapi anything goes. 

tgk mah nigga. so happy. btw aku jarang gila amik gambar, plus mmg tak suka pon amik gambar, tapi ini special occasion, so yeah why not. meet my homey, naim. getting his ass married. gaddamn

 yeah this is totally awkward. hahah sorry for the awkward pic ~_~

and this is the part where kawin dekat johor is a bit unique. diorang ada this thing yg kita panggil tol. so the best man kena prepare la nak lalu tol tu. kadang2 kena jual beli pantun, kadang2 kena usik sikit, biasalah kita orang melayu kaya dgn adat resam. 

so haritu aku lalu 5 tol. satu time berarak nak ke rumah pengantin pempuan, orang rewang datang hold, berbalas pantun kita kat situ, next tol dekat bawah kemah pulak, datang kazen dia apa semua. kendian tol depan rumah, budak2 kecik ngepau, dah masuk rumah, depan pintu, kena lagi satu tol. and last skali barulah tol mak andam. kalau tak lepas tol ni tak boleh tgk muka pengantin.  

begitulah pengalaman saya sebagai sorang best man. tak susah pun. relakan diri kena amik gambar, lap peluh pengantin, tolong kipaskan, tolong makan, tolong pegang barang n pegi photoshoot. settle. upah tu tak kesah tapi kalau ada bagi la, takde takpe ^_^

the week before, ni sekor lagi kawin, hekal. mcm gini punya rupa pon kawin ke? tak masuk akal betul. askldjasdjkldshidaspio. anyway, semoga berbahagia hendaknya, kawan2, naim dgn wife, hekal dgn wife, semoga panjang umur murah rezeki, biar kekal sampai bila2.

p/s: what? aku kawin? nope. not in this universe or its timeline.

holiday bullcraps/musing

lulz netizens going crazy bcos 1.5 mil bangladeshi people are going to work here in malaysia.

my opinion? why not. im still seeing our fellow malaysian lets break it down into several main race - pprt rempit malays, soteng ah peks, mabuk all day indian. wasting time not working rompak sana sini.

why not bawa bangla 1.5 mil masuk to work? our people malas lagi pun. sure let them take anything they want rather than biar ke org2 malas bcos our generation today bukan faham pun erti menghargai, bagilah bangla2 ni tebus balik kat negara dgn bangsa diorang and let our own people belajar erti hidup susah n takde hak kat negara sendiri

dont u dare talk to me about ketuanan melayu and its bullshit. yang tipu orang melayu dari dulu, orang melayu gak. yg rompak harta benda orang melayu zaman ni, masih orang melayu jugak. orang cina manipulate je

whatever it is, apa yg kita lawankan 60 tahun dulu, tak sama dgn sekarang. dulu2 kita bangkit demi bangsa dan negara lawan penjajah omputeh, sekarang kita lawan bangsa kita sendiri. ancaman global look childish compared to our own people, especially ajib gor dan konco-konconya.

jadi sekian, saya yang kebosanan sehingga jumaat. majulah kannabis demi negara, #legalisasimalaysia?